lahlah29

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I haven't posted in awhile not that anyone cares but hey guys things suck and the years almost over and I have no idea where my head is at but yeah I'm working on cruel love at the moment and sbout the only things getting me through life are my friends especially Elyon sprite so bye 

honestly no I'm not coping a smile doesn't mean I'm fine if you look you'll see that glimmer in my eye is a tear I refuse to let roll at the fear of being caught the temptation to cut is always there at the moment all I have to define me is my scars and that sucks 

Do u know how much self hatred it
          Takes for someone to drag a blade 
          Across their skin of course not 
          Because it's just for attention it's
          Not like we're hurting inside from 
          All the times we were emotionally 
          Scarred so we decided to physical
          Scar ourselves because it's not like
          We feel pain as much as you do no
          We don't have the same right to
          Hurt as every other human being 
          On this planet that's all it is we use
          Physical pain to mask emotional 
          Pain sometimes it hurts too much 
          There's days when you hurt but
          You're just numb from pain so you
          Ignore it but it doesn't work so you
          Cut just to feel alive just to see 
          Proof that at least part of you is still
          Alive even then sometimes you 
          Wish you weren't you'd say to your 
          Self just one last one I'll quit soon 
          It's just a bad time relief turns into
          Habit habit turns into addiction
          Before you know it you spend the
          Whole day thinking about where 
          You'll do it this time how deep how
          Long which blade it's no longer an 
          Option it's like a drug you need it 
          To get by day to day you know 
          What it's just as lethal as well but 
          There comes a day you have to 
          Stop it before it stops you 

I'm sick at home so will probably write a bit more today 

hey guys how's your day been school sucks but I hope your guys have been better :)