Hey Lainey, we may not know each other but i hope you're recovering. I came here from a book and I don't know what exactly happened, but I just wanted to let you know;
Please don't give up now, people still love you and care about you, you're an important person to a lot of peers in your life, trust me.
I know life gets very hard sometimes. But trust me, it will get better, you matter a lot even if you don't think so
I really, really hope you get better, if you need to talk or vent, you can to someone you trust, or I can listen if you need to. I hope you can recover, you seem like a very sweet person and i wish you the best, please take care