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*    cmere

@lanstrue !!   curious

@lanstrue,     *    shakes  u  around!!    soft.

*   muse  for  these  ocs   &   xie  lian  is  thru  the  roof

no..   sigh,    no  they  don't.    im  good  at  keeping  those  feelings  muted,   when  the  time  doesnt  call  for  it.    but..   you..    are  so  much  more  than  that  to  me,   peizhi.

@zhumings,    i  want  to  ask  you  something  then.   do  those  feelings  only  arise  when  you're..   here?  in  my  bed?   because  if  that's  the  case,   we..   don't  have  to  change  anything. 

i...    ❪..❫     dont  know.   you  make  me  feel..  weird,   but  safe  in  a  way.    there's  not  many  people  i  could  relax  around.    i  guess..    it  boils  down  to  what  youre  comfortable  with.   ill..   take  what  i  can  get.

@lanstrue,        *      !!

it  will  be  fine..    youre  a  good  father.   ❪...❫      xiulan  wont  kill  you.   dont  say  such..  ridiculous  things.    

@zhumings,   we'll  see  how..  long  i  get  to  have  her  once  word  gets  back  to  the  yaoqing.   yeah.   yeah,   you  will  be.  xiulan  will  kill  me  if  you  aren't. 

mhm..    everyone  should  have  their  father  in  their  life.   ❪..❫      ill  be..   fine.   

chengyue  found  me,   and   then  took  me  back  to  the  zhuming.

@zhumings,   then  how'd  you  get  here?

mhm  hm,   the  yaoqing.

you  /know/  me,   since  when  have  i  ever  been  a  coward?   

@zhumings,    not  very  convincing.   cooooward. 

me?    a  coward?    hmph,    im  no  coward.

how  could  i  possibly  sweat  it  all  off?   the  most  ive  done  in  the  past  30  years  is  instruct  drills  and  go  on  patrols.   hmph.   

@zhumings,      and  when  you  sweat  it  all  off  and  smell  like  the  inside  of  an  alchemy  commission  infirmary,   don't  come  whining  to  me. 

i  guess  i  just  have  the  worst  luck  with  fathers,    then.    really,     if  it  happens  thrice,    ill  have  to  treat  myself.     ❪..❫    sigh.   a  captain  of  the  cloud  knights  should  be  cordial,     zhi'er.    

@zhumings,    didn't  like  chengyue,   but  i  wasn't  suspecting  him  of  anything.    regardless  of  what  i  thought,   he  was  still  your  father.   i  wasn't  going  to  speak  ill  of  him  in  front  of  you.  (..)  come  on,   you're  lecturing  me?   i  can  swear  a  little  if  i  want. 

being  friends  with  xiulan  was  my  own  decision,    peizhi.       preceptor  chengyue..   tolerated  it,     i  think.      but..     regardless,   i  cant  say  i  understand  the  preceptors  actions.    ❪..❫       i  guess  you  were  right,   and—-     language,    peizhi.