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ALSO!!! COOL!!! AHH!!!! HE LOOKS SO COOL AHH I LOVE HIMMM

Hi guys :) Idk if I said this before, but the reason I haven't deleted this account is because I still love you guys and the connection we had here. I stopped being active and reaching out because real life came back and slapped me in the face, and I gradually stopped online chatting... A hiatus got too long, and I haven't found the energy to return yet. But know that I still lurk to see your notifs, still love y'all, and hope peace and happiness find you and vice versa. Life is busy and stressful nowadays, I hope you guys do great and that we can push through one challenge after the next. 
          
          Much love, Jai.
          
          Also, I think wattpad keeps the comments even after you delete your account. So I've been trying to delete my trail of cringe left and right. But probably haven't even gotten close to obliterating them!! >:/ please let me know if you see my comments, they haunt me in the form of the constant itch in the back of my brain ToT

oh wow look at you being alive ✨

guys if you're re-reading and see my comment, can you comment underneath it so I can come and delete it?  I'm constantly haunted by my cringe comments from ages ago and it's scratching at the back of my brain 

Happy New Year guys!! Love you lots, wish everyone finds peace and strength within themselves this year. At least, that's what I wish for myself and I hope y'all have it too. mwa!

@high-priest is gone???? Since when??

It's been over one whole week, and now I finally can come on here and say something...
          When I heard the news I snorted and thought it was fake, until I saw multiple sources saying the same. I had exams that day but I couldn't bring myself to focus, or care much. Because although I don't actively follow Liam's solo career, his passing was unexpected and a bigger blow for me and all fans than I anticipated. After that day I didn't dare open twitter for a few days because I was afraid I'd cry. Anyways, this isn't about me. It's about the guy we held dear to our hearts once, the guy who had a family, an extended family, and a permanent influence in so many people with music. The guy who was unhappy, even till the end. Though he had wrong-doings and wasn't the best example, but given more time, he could have gotten the chance to heal, improve, and change. Just like what all the people who loved him would have wanted. 
          
          Rest easy Liam, we hope you are at peace and well.

Heyyy, girlll. It's been a while. I hope you're doing okay. <333

hiiii hru?))

Rant time.. because this is the only safe space I have with an audience..
          
          My mom's friend called her (she was on speaker so I heard everything) to share about her son's crush on his older sister's friend and they were giggling about it (oh he thinks he's sooo subtle lol). 
          
          Cool, until I hear them agree on "At least there's nothing wrong with his sexuality." Because he only hung out with guys before and his mom was "worried"
          
          I was about to go downstairs but then there I was, sitting on the top of the stairs blue screening. There's supposed to be nothing wrong with his sexuality, whoever he likes... Right?
          
          I know my family's stance on sexuality. I've had my uncle state flatly to my face, "I don't understand homosexuality. It's not right to me." I've had Christian, Islamic, Buddhist, and Taoist influences during my upbringing and it's doing wonders to my religious guilt. I can't even fully process my sexuality yet cause I'm afraid of the aftermath of whatever sexuality I am. But I can't control it. I'm terrified sometimes. 
          
          Just... I don't know. Only my closest queer friends (like, 3 or 4) know of my "issue", and I just can't find the strength to voice it out loud... It's just a rant anyways. It'll pass... I hope. Sad rn.