Thank you. She knows how I feel. Two years ago when I first started talking to her, she made me promise that I would never leave. I promised her that. I had/have every intention to keep that. So many people have left her in the past, so she is afraid of losing people. I'm trying as hard as I can to stay, but you can't really hold onto something that is pushing you away. She is pushing me away. I'm not the type of person to have a lot of friends. I socialize with everyone, but I don't really get along with people enough to consider them my friends. She knows I hate myself and have no friends, yet here I stay, currently friendless.