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in 2013 she wanted to be a nurse
          in 2014 she wanted to be a fairy
          in 2015 she wanted to be a princess
          in 2016 she wanted to be a singer
          in 2017 she wanted to be an actress
          in 2018 she wanted to die
          in 2019 she didn't want to die
          in 2020 she wants to die peacefully and let the pain go away..
          that she is me, and anyone who else is feeling the same

when you cry just because of a small matter and people make fun of you because of that.
          when you stare outside your window while its raining and crying because someone hurted you.
          when you look at yourself at the mirror after crying and pose.
          when you let the tears just flow down your cheeks and not wiping it off.
          when you cry in the school toilet so people wont know that you cried.
          when you loved that person who didn't love you back.
          when you think that nobody loves nor care about you.
          when you hug your pillow because you have no one to hug you. 
          when you stop eating just because you think you're too fat.
          when you know that someone talked bad about you but you still stayed silent.
          when someone asked if you're okay but you just lie and say you're fine when you're in pain.
          when your parents took your phone and you go to your room and cry while lying down on your bed.
          when your parents fight and all you could do is just cry.
          when you fake a smile just to let people know that you're okay

I’m sorry for never texting first... i just don’t want to be a bother. 
          I’m sorry for always laughing or making a joke... I just wanna hide the pain 
          I’m sorry for not saying I love you... I just don’t want to get hurt in the future
          I’m sorry for not showing emotion... I’m just dead inside 
          I’m just hiding my feelings, it’s ME not you and I hate myself for that.

we are just all kids about to give up telling other kids that life gets better when we know ourselves it doesn’t...

Emotionally: I’m done.
          Mentally: I’m drained.
          Spiritually: I’m dead.
          Physically: I smile.

"Sometimes you need to accept the fact that you wasted someone who you realized was very special to you"
                   -Unknown...

I don't want to die 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I just want to close my eyes and disappear forever.

You just know that you love her when you let her go

Where did my happy girl go?”
          “What’s up with you?” 
          “Why are you always sad?” 
          The truth is I don’t know where she went. The girl with light in her eyes ready to conquer everything. The girl who smiled and never faked anything. The girl who was open to anything and was open about anything. She’s gone. She left. She stopped smiling. She stopped being open. She stopped having that light in her eyes. She started to feel numb. She started to wish she was dead. She wanted to be dead. 
          It’s me.
          I’m that girl.
          The girl who was once happy and now isn’t. What happened to me?