lavendercielo

I'm still alive guys.

wonshua17

Ohh can i ask u question

lavendercielo

@wonshua17 of course go ahead ♡
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wonshua17

@ lavendercielo  
            
            
            
            Hi
            I really love your story, it’s amazing! ❤️
            I’d like to ask for your permission to translate your story into Arabic and share it (with full credit to you, of course).
            Is that okay with you?
            
            Thank you so much!
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lavendercielo

@wonshua17  sure
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pearlifications

hello there girl
          i'm coming from your cheol book and i got to know that you've been struggling with health issues idk if you'd read this but i still want to write this to appreciate you for being strong and going through all that sickness
          i hope you get back to 100% soon it doesn't matter if you don't write anymore as long as you are out there happy i'd be relieved
          i really hope you live a happy healthy life stay blessed girl
          i don't know you but still i love and admire you
          sending love and prayers( •̀ ω •́ )✧

lavendercielo

@pearlifications  Thank you so much, that really means a lot to me right now.
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Lorenaviven

Fly high little angel
          
          
          ♥︎ i wish you the best

lavendercielo

@Lorenaviven oops. First time login in in 2 years.
            I was just depressed and couldn't bring myself to write again. Sorry for scaring you guys.
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lavendercielo

Hi.
          I haven't been updating because I've been going from the doctor to the hospital for the past 2 months. I've gotten 5 different kinds of medications. I've been pierced with a needle around 14 times and I have to go to the hospital again tomorrow and the 22th as well as the 30th and I'm so scared and terrified because they can't identify what's wrong with my heart.
          I'll be getting a pulse monitor on the 30th and the 3rd X-ray tomorrow along with another set of needles trying to find my veins and take blood. I'm so done with everything. I'm drowning in anxiety and they tell me not to feel anxious because it makes it worse but I'm seating here crying and shaking because I can't take this anymore. I have zero money and a 3,593 dollar debt with my name on it and i still have hospital visits left that are adding to the debt. I have no friends to talk to because we either drifted apart after high school or they have there own problems to deal with and on my way out of the doctors a nurse told me since the monitor will be placed on me 2 weeks from now I should avoid having a heart attack before then and I don't know if that was a joke or not and I've been crying ever since.

Lorenaviven

@ lavendercielo  I read this, and I feel that she is no longer here among us, I hope that wherever you are, you are very happy
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BTSIsMyEuphoria2

@lavendercielo lovely. I'm so sorry to hear this. Your such an amazing person. I hope they figure it out if they haven't already :( stay strong </3
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lavendercielo

currently in the hospital :|

lavendercielo

@lavendercielo i came in for chest pain and they said they couldn't see anything wrong so I should probably go see a cardiologist.
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Ryusha

Are you okay?! I mean your at the hospital so, maybe not. But are you okay?
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