It's annoying and confusing how I think that to be able to write, I need to wait for that thing (I'm pretty sure you're like, what thing? Yeah, I dont know either) but when it doesn't come and I just say eff it and write, I actually am successful and then I get stuck, and that whole 'wait for that thing' comes back and I do wait and it doesn't come, so I have to take initiative again and just write and end up being successful again.
Urgh
It's a never ending cycle.