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started crying for no reason at all :(

HELP I was in speech/debate/theater class (SDT) and all of a sudden for no fricking reason at all I was staring at my friends and I felt bad for no reason at all
          
          I was talking to my friend about how they were all amazing and that they're just...better and she went "Ichika core" LMAO
          
          Am I turning into Ichika

Thx for the follow

Wonderhoy!!!

my irrational fears became very rational

I started crocheting! I made something that was supposed to be a leg warmer but it was a bit too big so I made it something for my waterbottle instead :D
          sadly we can't post pictures

*gives you a box full of cookies* for u meow (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

Today has been...a lot. I think I'm good on the sleep...don't question four hours...but I woke up feeling anxious (well, no duh, I took my history test yesterday). I suck at history. Very very very bad. And I missed a week of school to go to India for family matters so I missed the test which means I had to make it up! 
          
          However...I expected my make-up test on Thursday...not Tuesday(yesterday). I WAS UNPREPARED! AND THE NOTES I GOT FROM MY FRIEND WERE...while pretty detailed, not containing all the important stuff. My teacher usually discusses and emphasizes things on the test...but I feel like my friend memorized that and understood it and didn't feel the need to note it down...which means I didn't get that bit. So...I was unsure for most of the test! If I had studied...if I hadn't come off a flight yesterday morning, I swear I would've been more prepared. I swear I would've done better!
          
          But...but...when we got our tests back...I failed. That was bad. My dad would understand but my mom probably wouldn't. And plus...I haven't failed since the second semester of fifth grade (seventh now)! So what did I do? I cried. Of course, I'd save my dignity and do it in the bathroom, but I cried.
          
          There are so many reasons I should feel upset. One, I kind of just broke my reputation as a good student. Good students never fail. Not like everyone knows...but still. I feel bad. Terrible. Second, my dad said he'd be sad, not mad if I failed this test. That only brings me back to the time when they said if I couldn't make them happy, I couldn't make anyone happy. And that left me with a sense of...despair? I can't explain it. And then...I don't know, I felt terrible...there was something else too, but I can't remember what it was.
          
          I was just...there, sobbing...in the bathroom. I've never cried on purpose before at school. I've broken so many streaks...I feel bad.

here's a bagel! hand this to 10 other ppl!

help i would do a pjsk style profile but i keep maxing out characters cause of my fonts *cry emoji*