Hey guys! Well hello to the few that actually read the stuff that I write.This is an update. In my private journal so to speak that really isn't private since it is for all too see and read , anyways if you do read that "book" you will see that there is some pretty gloomy things posted there. THEY are poems about things that do go on in MY life. They are real and do come from a hole of dark pain. My life is rough, but it could be a lot worse which brings me to this point.I was really sad about things that go on and one afternoon I realized that if I was to die would I be contempt with how my life is, that is when I told myself I WILL GET OUT OF MY HOLE. I let myself get attached to a person something I was taught to never do. It brought a lot of hurt .She was/ Is my bestfriend.I don't even know. I made ideas in my head about something that clearly was not there .There were promises that were broken. I realized she never really did care for me or at least not as much as I did for her. We don't really talk anymore. I do miss her the old her at least,that first came into my life. Like I said I made myself think it was others fault why I am always so sad.I needed to change. I was really not content with how I looked. I took action and signed up for this thing called STUDENTS RUN L.A. I can honestly say running 6 miles a day for four days if not more plus workouts is helping me out with my life. The people are pretty amazing too. Running is helping. I have left Wattpad for a while since this is where I used to let out all my negativity out but I have decided to return to write because I really do love writing. To ALL the people out there YOU and ONLY YOU can decided who you turn out to be. Without "friends" I brought myself back up. It takes determination to become who you want to be. It will be hard but nothing comes easy in life. Music helps. If you need any music suggestions do not be afraid to ask. I hope you all are well. I would love to talk to y'all.Goodnight.
