lemonadenose

I'm probably not gonna update my books at all anymore. I'm kinda over the whole wanting to be a writer thing

-mcr_is_back-

If you were killed, I wouldn't be at your funeral.
          
          I would be in jail for killing the person who killed you.
          
          We are true friends
          
          We ride together, we die together
          
          Send this to everyone you care about, including me, if you care
          
          See how many times you get this
          
          I want you to know you are an amazing friend, till death, and forever
          
          If I don't get this back, I understand
          
          But I have a request for you
          
          Once you get this letter
          
          Please send this to 15 other people
          
          ❤If you get this at least three times, you are loved❤
          
          Nobody knows how important something is until they lose it
          
          With love, send this to fifteen other people

bethanyl5

I have a question that might be weird may I ask it?

bethanyl5

@The_Dark_Mark fun my mom would kill me if I ever became a stripper or started hanging out with them.
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lemonadenose

@bethanyl5 i hate my middle because its named after my biological moms stripper friend
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bethanyl5

@The_Dark_Mark that's pretty do you hate any part of your name like your first, middle, or last. I hate my middle because I was named after my drunk, abusive, drug doing grandma.
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lemonadenose

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Its crazy...all I can do is give a sad smile and whisper the words "I'm Okay" or text the words "I'm fine"...when you know what...I'm not fine...I'm not okay...to be honest...I want to die...I don't want to suffer in this hell of a life anymore I want to end it all...but there's a tiny part of me that says..."stop"..."put down the knife"..."put down the razor blade"..."put down the pill bottles"...and that tiny part gets me every goddamn time...my schedule has become Fucked Up...
          Get up
          Go to school
          Survive & Pretend to be happy
          Come home 
          Survive & Pretend to be happy
          Cry myself to sleep
          Hopefully don't wake up
          Repeat
          I want to tell them...goddamn it...I want to scream at them...all the shit that I'm going through...but all I can do is give a sad smile and whisper the words "I'm fine" or text the words "I'm Okay" when in reality I know I'm not...Either one day I will show this to them or ...one day they will see for themselves...that's the reason I'm not alive anymore...I didn't want to...thank you whoever "cares" for "careing" though I don't believe in that word anymore I'm sorta numb to the words "I care" or "I'm here for you" because everyone says that...but they always turn their back on you...no matter how much you love them...no matter how much you want or need them in your life...they don't give a shit...THEY DONT FUCKING CARE...I'm done with believing In those words...I don't think I ever will thanks to the shitty life I've had...thanks to THEM ...I CANT FUCKING BELEIVE ANYTHING ANYMORE...I FUCKING HATE IT...IM SCARED TO FEEL HAPPY...ONLY TO HAVE IT TAKEN AWAY FROM ME ONCE AGAIN...
          ~The_Dark_Mark/Lucy

bethanyl5

@The_Dark_Mark or is it 6 feet idfk
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bethanyl5

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@The_Dark_Mark honestly so fucking true with how rough life is for teens these days I'm surprised that I'm not 3 feet underground
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