it's like... i did every single thing right for months...

but there were no progress

no nothing...

im at the same place i was before all the changes i made

so tell me... why stick by it when nothing has changed and i feel the same and the world is still fucking meaningless and people still dont give a shit about me...

tell me why... should i keep trying to make friends when i have been for months and all it has lead to is platonic "contacts" where they use me for that particular thing....

im done... the only real purpose i can see in life is death...

everything else in between is pointless and meaningless...