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Thank you for the follow! I'm always here if your need a friend or someone to talk to or to vent to. I'd be happy to listen! 

I know I haven't been on for a while everything got on top of me, and my health is really bad I have to go doctors tomorrow so that will be fun, I'm not really coping I'm trying. This new year been crap and horrible

Well people always say I'm too pretty and clever to be a lesbian, as of course like everyone else on the planet when someone has a label they have to look like the label they was given or made themselves and thats not fair at all I have lots of labes some that happened like my gender and others that I can't help like I have a deep voice and that I'm a pink rose (my mum is a red rose and my dad was a white so I'm a pink rose) but anyway I don't hate man at all yes I have a problem around males as they make me feel odd but I losed two males in my life that was important to me that I shouldn't have to deal with at the ages I was, I was 7 when I losed my grandad who was and always will my best friend in the whole world and he's been died 13 years and then boxing day of this year I losed my dad we was not close at the end but me and my sister are or was his next of kin I couldnt do the one thing I could have for him which was do his funeral I had exams the week before and a lot of other crap going on and friday was his funeral I went and said my final goodbyes that was my first funeral,  never guessed ìt would bd my dads he was 47 thats hardly an age to die I forget where I was going with this wait I remember he night after my dad's funeral I was speak to horribly by a man I don't know all because well I don't know the reason. But I don't care really I'm done with man that treat me like crap

Well if this is the only thing I learn in these three years then that fine because most people will never learn this,
          
          Humans are horrible like as a race not as people as a whole,
          
          Yes I love animals more than people and that's because they don't judge me or hurt me,
          
          That's all people do to me all the time. 
          
          Yes I'm different but I'm me that's all.
          
          I don't hate people I hate humans they are different

Why does life hate me so much I feel so ill, I hate this mystery illness it's
          something that I have but it goes away then comes back and the worse thing is I now have a cold too so yes and my body just aching all over.
          
          Yesterday we had a lecture on positive psychology with a dr ho and he was right we need to start thinking about what makes us happy and how to be happier not about our problems and our fears, we need to be the future to make the world a happier place for everyone.
          
          I'm doing it with my gran she slipped and displaced her elbow and now it will never be the same but she learning to use her left hand and her right hand she cn grab and she showed me last night and its something little but it made her happy so I showed her I was proud of her and she smiled it little things like that.
          
          So I know what I want to do when I have my phd.
          
          

I really don't know where my head is, I missed a bus friday morning then got lost in bolton as I walked forward not backwards and then I get onthe wrong bus and ended up in Rochdale. I need shooting please

I really don't understand danielle problem with me as she hit me yesterday for no reason that was after the dr lecturer was talking about they are looking to see if bein gay is in our genes like I know I'm a lesbian and I'm out and proud but I don't really care if its in my genes or I just like girls but because I say I was stupid and pointless se hit me in the face because I speakmy opinion like I don't care what you think about me or if you understand the way I dress or the way I am or the colour I have my hair.
          
          My mum said it the best way to my step dad,
          Step dad: I don't ever know what you are.
          Mum: I do she's jess and thats all shes nothing else as you shouldn't see people as their labels.
          
          I think that shes says is true just because some people arr differet doesn't mean they are bad it judt means they are different. 

I can't think of a better sunday morning then laying in bed watching wwuptoti (why would you put that on the internet) with connie cuddles and popcorn #sundaymorninggoals

Well that my mession for the year to make Kelly one of the Bury lot as she needs friends bless her she's amazing friend and so funny so my mession get kelly to the Bury lot ago hehehe she's stuck with us now welcome to the mad house yoy will regret being friends with me