Dear C

          I love Jesus so much. 

"A Coffee Made by You" written by Dear C.
          
          = ☕︎ =
          
          
          Stirring on my sleep gently, I could feel the sun's warmth also trying to wake me up with its light. Passing through the soft-beige curtains, barely protecting us from the wakeup call.
          
          My husband, there lay down beside me, arm wrapped around my body protectively. And I could have sworn he smelled of sweet-roasted coffee that causes my heart to palpitate, every time I get to feel his skin in this conscious state.
          
          His rough voice, but his sweet words causes my stomach to feel the tingles, as it vibrates through my soul. His love, warmth, breath, everything about him is so addictive. He felt the same about me, as my gaze was enough to cause him to crack up a tender smile. Caressing my hair and pressing a kiss onto my forehead, as we both sit up to stretch.
          
          We stared at each other for awhile and laughed just like that. Already starting our day on a warm touch, just like the coffee we make in the mornings.
          
          
          -- Just felt like writing <3 UR girl is in her writing era again, and when I say that, it means I AM UNSTOPPABLE!!! ᕙ(˘ ³˘)ᕗ

April 24, 2025
          
          Want some life updates from me again? Hehe~ sure thing.
          
          (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)
          
          So guess what! I have resigned from my first ever committed work. After 1 year and about 6 months, I decided to quit just like that. I lasted that long surprisingly, despite how toxic the environment was. Not that I am not grateful for the work experience, trust me I am. 
          
          (˵•̀⤙•́˵)૭
          
          How could anyone, ANYONE at all, just ruin someone so casually Every. Single. Day? Those people by the way also have feelings, they get trigger a lot, but the way they humiliate and destroy even those VERY young than them is incredibly horrendous. The fact that those younglings, like me, had to endure both work and manipulation from those coworkers 10+ to 20+ years older than me is crazy!!!
          
          ⁽⁽(੭ꐦ •̀Д•́ )੭*⁾⁾
          
          Ever since I left, I felt so peaceful. I heard from someone they couldn't believe the fact that I left, and continued to make up stories about me, JUST to justify their actions trying to ruin my life. I have not done anything to those people at all and God is the only one preventing me from not being angry at them. I still bless them nonetheless, because I believe God serves the best justice and I also make mistakes sometimes. So I am not qualified to be on the position to judge harshly.
          
          ദ്ദി(｡•̀ ,<)~✩‧₊
          
          Anyways, I am also just freely figuring out my life. I have been given a chance to pursue school one last time, and I am trying to put an effort to finish it now! 
          
          AND OH- My sister is so thoughtful wanting me to bring me to Vancouver.
          
          (ㅅ´ ˘ `)

April 24, 2025
          
          "Soulmates ☘︎ ݁˖"
          
          
          --What is the true definition of it? For some, I have heard it's when two souls are connected. Fated.
          
          For me, there was no other definition for that time. Everything felt like written when I met that soul. Almost like we could understand each other without having to speak. It was only for a day, but my happiness lasted up until now. 
          
          I remember praying to God that night, telling Him that I'll be happy just by interacting with anyone, even if it won't start a friendship. But God did not disappoint me, He made me so happy.
          
          It would be silly to call that person an angel, but their soul was so open, compassionate and made me feel like I was truly being watched by God. I never felt alone. It lasted for hours just us having the time of our lives in a little game, yet everything just felt like...it made sense. All that mattered was each other.
          
          We added each other, but I was too shy to say hi. Still is up to this day. I disappointed myself, since it's been a month and days ever since that night happened. Am I scared? Most likely. Only because it felt too good to be true, but God is also too good to be true, but He is real! Am I worried? Sure is! But I will forever be grateful to that memory and cherish it in my heart. I have been blessed.

May 11, 2024
          
          
          Oh my goshhh, it has been a while and I have forgotten to give some updates! I got a laptop for myself where you can turn it into a tablet or a laptop. It was on sale when I found it on Best Buy lol <333 From what I remember it was $440 which was not bad for such a good quality. And there's so much more teas that I've been wanting to get out but UGH, I just didn't had the best memory to come back here and spill it. Anyways, I've been a busy gal and will share some again soon. HOPEFULLY. BAIBAIII~!!!
          
          Love, C.

December 4, 2023
          
          
          I thought it's still going to be November, but anyways~ It has been indeed 6 MONTHS since I last posted on this app again. Within those months, it may seem as if there not much that happened, however it was just a slow progression. 
          
          J and I decided to part ways after almost hitting two years. Those years meant a lot, especially it was something truly remarkable for me. Something special and to which I believe would never leave my heart. It is time to move on though and stop dwelling on the past since I'm already ahead of what had happened. 
          
          I am dating this new guy now, although it wasn't the best decision to do jump into something out of pressure, after only getting out a relationship within the same month. I will be continuing to love myself because I know I am closer to what God has promised me. What I prayed God for but it also doesn't mean I'd neglect what I have. I will be continuing to appreciate him and many more blessings that appeared in my life given by God. 
          
          I would love to find myself full of love and patience and maturity through the Lord Himself. I pray for everyone's happiness, and until then~!
          
          
          Love, C.
          

June 03, 2023
          
          
          That dream I had, holding a glass with fireflies in them while in the beach. Walking alone and feeling the breeze that brushes through my skin so softly, it made me felt lighter. That light in the sky slowly fading with clouds hovering below it. The ocean calmly running to the sand every time like soldiers in sync , marching as they are told to do so. 
          
          What about the man in my blurry dream? Who is he really? Foreheads against each other, our eyes closed, holding each other so gently that it felt like the time was ours. Making me feel so safe, that any natural disaster could happen in there but I would be fine anyways and trusting that whatever it may be, we still would be with each other. It felt so peaceful that I want it to happen now. 
          
          Doesn't it feel so special to be loved by someone with all their heart and you being able to give back without having to worry about whether you've given so much or less? That kind of love that you're willing to run away together because you only want nothing but to be with that person you want to spend the rest of your lives with? Not having to doubt whether they feel the same or not, because you just connect in so many ways, despite how different your souls are from each other? 
          
          Writing each other poems, going out on a date no matter if it's outside or in a coffee shop or restaurant as long as you're with that person, holding each other's hands and staring at one another's eyes, seeing the future in them that always lights your present, waiting for them to come home to join you in bed, so many affections that it makes you feel complete, their reassuring voice that sworn to protect each other, laughing at their mistakes and being forgiven of one another, reading books under a large tree that becomes their cover for that sunny weather or rainy weather, listening to their partner's heartbeat as they lay on their chest and making love passionately, only thinking about one another.
          
          Isn't that what love is?

A loonnnnnngggggggg month break from wattpad, whews...
          
          Funny thing is that I'm going to be writing a story on Joylada for fun today! I haven't come up with a very strong story foundation yet, however I've got some few ideas and characters in mind. Hopefully it'll all works out soon soon sOON! I don't want to stress about it that much since it's just for entertainment, however I still want to do a satisfying job on it not just for me, but for the future readers. SO, FIGHTING~!

Letting go also sometimes shows how much love you have for someone.

HMPF ( ˘ ^˘ ).