lewncy

Farewell~★

I keep feeling this dizzyness in my mind. I can finally say that I am messed up again. No where for me to go again. Cause I feel like I belong to no where. Emptyness. My words dont work anymore. It hurts me to see them like this. Their love towards to unknown is so far away that I cant even call them by their names. Even tho I call them what will tell them? Like I dont have those feelings or those thoughts but I needed some inspration so I called you? Its stupid and bad, cant do that. And without those feelings I cant write. So funny isnt it? I cant live without those feelings, even tho I try I stuck somewhere, somehow. I need all of this to end or end me. Both sounds impossible.

I thought there is always a way out. Now, I slowly realize that escape is not that easy and I'm not that brave. Maybe I should leave those things behind and let it go. Let it go because they are making my life gone. Maybe I should be braver, maybe I should fight for real but I need to do something...

Life from the perspective of a Multipotentialite person.

The matrix
          Yet you try. You keep searching for that single purpose that will make you feel whole again. Maybe you feel there’s something out there that is “you”—something that’s meant especially for you. You only have to find it and then you’ll be okay. Beware: This path is full of lies.

Disappointments greet you
          When you’re unable to come up with a goal for yourself, it can hurt. You know you’re ready to put in the hard work, but goals keep changing, as nothing interests you for long. The hurt and disappointment can erode your self-confidence, as well.

Not fitting in
          Finally ,you realize you don’t fit in. You start feeling something’s wrong with you, that you’re not like other “normal” people around you who commit to doing things. You believe you’re different and feel you don’t belong anywhere. This can also lead to loneliness or a sense of being alone in the world.

All of the chains held by my soul setting free by my mind.

Well, then I'mma tell you I'm a traveller, a passenger, an adventurer, an adrenaline seeker... I slowly become aware all of my versions. Infinite choices inside my head, they are only one sec away from me. 
          
          And I realize how beautiful life is. With every possible way, It's totally crazy. Life is crazy and I'm slowly falling in love with this. 
          
          Life is endless and being a human in this universe making me feel cared. Existence is crazy and become aware of everything one by one making me feel so free. 

Let me sing a song that will mesmerize you in this way you'll become a vulnerable puppet of mine in the blink of an eye.