We are not defined by the size of our jeans or the number on the scale , have you seen you profile picture ? Your stunning ! If you need inspiration listen to some music or something? I personally think your story is amazing and I will wait until you feel happier to write , I will keep reading your story because I love it , your a fantastic writer and I think your amazing , you may hide that smile and think that others don't notice , but I bet they do , they're just scared of what your going through , hang in there , and I'm not gonna say ' it gets between ' because we all know that it will take a while , you just need support and I'm here for you xxx