lilarjie

bye...

hm...
          i'm carried away na naman sa naalala ko...
          sorry..
          can't help myself...
          ;)

he doesn't knew anything about this...
          if he does, i might be committing a painful suicide...

i knew that ii might fall into an ocean of him..
          but i did not prepare myself on the chance that he might walk away....
          i was always assuring myself that this won't grow...
          so now i'm suffering...
          i'm stupid!..
          i shouldn't have expected too much...
          for now i'm slowly dying...
          again...
          ;(

here i go again..
          i haven't learned my lesson...
          i starting to feel this way again...
          i'm really stupid...
          stupidity for falling without knowing that nobody will catch me..

i keep on telling myself that it won't hurt...
          but as i'm telling myself...
          i was becoming a liar and a hypocrite..
          

*tears run down my eyes...*
          i thought i was ready when the time will come...
          but no... 
          i realized i wasn't...
          i was so weak...
          i thought i was that strong enough...
          but no...
          i was not really healed...
          there's still the wound i couldn't bear...

june 16...let go na....
          katamad na mag update...
          focus na lng sa ibang bagay....
          ;-)