Dream of writing a book one day, despite having mild dyslexia, poor commitment and frankly not being that good at writing... 🤷🏽‍♀️

Positives: open minded, caring, daydreamer, gets super excited about my favourite things, empathetic, passionate about mental health

Negatives: pessimistic about myself, somewhat over sensitive and too empathetic, I want to help everyone, I think honesty is the best policy (so sometimes say too much and overwhelm people), I don't share thoughts in person enough or when I do it's a case of word vomit and I say everything (and it scares people), I have awful time keeping skills, crap short term/working memory, and I can't seem to manage balancing my time between all the people I love, mostly because all my friends live far away these days 

I think I've said I do certain things or am certain things but I'm not very good at those things so much that I should clarify...so in a nutshell, I'm mediocre. Literally mediocre in everything. I do not excel in one thing, I do not have a hidden talent (trust me I've tried to find it), I do not have any talent even in negative things like "I'm an expert at being lazy" or "I'm an expert in feeling sad". I'm not even an expert in feeling in general, I say I'm quite sensitive but I often find myself emotionally clueless. I can't even say I ever had full blown anorexia and full blown depression when I did. I'm a god damn toe dipper. I dip my toe into nearly every pool of life. And never get the full experience of anything. I'm only ever an expert in being mediocrely experienced in a mediocre amount of experiences in life. 

Oh and I'm annoyingly obsessive with things but it's never super intense and often more of a phase... so that leads me to something not finishing things. But I have promised myself I will eventually finish Understanding Her... and I am constantly adding ideas to it and occasionally writing in it. I've just not published anything for fear of not going back to it for a while again