꒰ ˘͈ᵕ˘͈ lily .ᐟ

gosh i could talk about scoups all day

question for any other olivia rodrigo listeners... 
          who else got absolutely destroyed by this album bc i just got wrecked by it T-T

gonna write this week bc i don’t have work until friday 
          lets see how many chapters i can crank out of everything i have…

also i’ve lowkey been back in my haikyu phase recently (i never left what am i talking abt) 
          im tempted to finally write my suna stories (and a cute osamu one <3)

still haven’t gotten over hype vibes seungcheol and it’s been months

the urge to write a story based off of the song i wanna be your slave…

ok it’s been a hot minute since i’ve actually updated… i want to update soon, just haven’t gotten around to doing so bc i’ve been playing tomodachi life lol 
          but here’s a quick life update.. 
          
          i’ve decided to actually switch not only colleges but also what i’m studying and pursue architecture which is something i’ve always dreamed of doing but didn’t think i was capable of since i didn’t think i was good enough at numbers and math. 
          im doing a transfer program which is supposed to be 2 and 4 years i think however i have all of my core classes and electives done so i should be able to push a few classes together to get it done in less. i would be transferring to my sister’s college hopefully 
          doing so would help my sister and i’d get an apartment down there and she’d either stay with me during breaks or we’d live together. it’d honestly be better for us not to be at home but that’s a topic for later.. 
          
          i turn 20 very soon hahaha… (three days after jeonghan’s return (it’s like he’s my bday present lol)) so i lowkey need to get my life together 
          
          my mental health is honestly kind of absolutely a wreck rn and i can’t afford therapy and trying to push through it is so incredibly hard that one of the few things keeping me going is my sister (who’s graduating high school in two days and going to college in august). 
          it’s hard to do everything right now and i haven’t been able to sleep well for a few days but it’s something ik will pass but that makes it worse bc it’s that anticipation and waiting of “when” 
          
          i’m job hunting and trying to save to move out of my house although im not sure it’ll happen for another year. 
          which isn’t awesome bc being at home with my family actually affects my mental health badly more than anything rn 
          
          so yea. 
          i hope everyone is doing well and i love everyone on here :) 
          have an awesome day/night <3

once again realizing that if i want to read the plots i come up with for my own stories, i need to actually write them instead of holing up ideas in my head :/

i wanna write angst but i don’t want the main character to feel hurt :/

my finals are finally over TvT