@lilmcfillxXSWXx
STOP CLONE WARS IS SUCH A SAD SHOW STOP STOP STOP I AM CRYING
AHHHHHH
On an unrelated note
I love loving someone who loves me and I love when it’s my best friend and more than just a friendly love
Sometimes I get this feeling that’s like..
My gosh. I am so lucky.
My best friend taught me to control my feelings. He taught me to love myself, rather than just bear with myself.
Then, he became my crush.
My crush, my best friend, saying “I love you Lils...”
Nothing melts my heart more.
Nothing makes me smile bigger.
Nothing makes me feel more loved.
I am so lucky.
Lol my one friend who always complains about how terrible her life is, is in Hawaii and won’t stop talking about how great it is and I am dying of laughter I simply cannot
Ugh Aiden from Alexa and Katie
Ugh my best friend has been gone the past week and we haven’t talked in literally 7 days and I don’t know what to do with myself because we normally talk all day 24/7 and I’m *craving* communication and I need help, clearly, my gosh
And then he texts me saying
“I have earbuds in and Siri told me “from lily:” And the second I heard that I smiled”
Stop
I know I have literally zero followers. But in case someone stumbles upon this account and wants to help, I need book ideas badly. I’m craving to write, but I don’t really know what to write. I have a few ideas, but I can’t set them into motion. Nobody knows, but two years ago, I had the best online life ever. I had some pretty great friends—one better than the rest (you know who you are)—and I miss having such a supportive and friendly community. Sadly, a series of complications led to my having to delete my account. All my friends, works, everything—it was all lost. Forever.
Anyways, that’s the story of my life. Since then, I’ve grown in many aspects. I discovered Stoicism, thanks to a good friend of mine, and though I’m not a true Stoic, it’s helped me. My skills in horseback riding have improved so much, and I’ve become a better student. I’m not depressed at all anymore, fully recovered, thanks to one person (again, you know who you are). However, I lost almost every friend I had over the summer. I was left with no one, and I don’t know why.
Anyways, this is here for anyone who stumbles upon my account. If you need a friend, well, I’m also looking for friends. So... hit me up. XD
@gingerorder I think it would be pretty cool if you did. No pressure to do it or anything, but know that it would be welcomed—by me, at least. I know that feeling though. Like you’re just not... enjoyed. Not pleasant to talk to. An annoyance. I feel that way with my friends, in person and over the phone, a lot of the time, actually. I don’t know how, or why, anybody would not like you though, you’re so likable XD Oh no, that’s terrible, I’m so sorry. Technology can be a pain sometimes. A lot of the time, actually, lol. Good for you though, all A’s is hard. Especially in hardcore Tennessee schools, haha. Oh yeah I knew ForeverDirectioner slightly, back in the good old days XD. We weren’t really friends, but we followed each other and talked occasionally. She always seemed really nice. Pen pals are fun haha. I’m glad my presence is welcomed though. To be honest, the only reason I came back here was because of what happened over the summer, losing the dearest of friends and all. I don’t know, I guess I just missed having a constant friend? I don’t really know. But I’m glad I’m welcome here lol.
@lilmcfillxXSWXx // maybe I should write it. I'll probably publish it if I ever feel like it. I just get the feeling that people don't like my stuff, you know? for some weird reason, and I feel like so many people online don't like me either. It's sort of weird, but yeah. I'll maybe use one of my backup accounts to write small stories for myself. I'll have to see. I ended with mostly 70s last semester, but that's because I had so much late work because my computer wasn't working for the zoom meetings for like the first two weeks, and I got so behind on everything. I'm starting this one out with all As though, and I'm hoping to keep it that way. I do have two really good friends online though, and one is on Wattpad ( ForeverDirectioner73 , she's so nice ), and then this pen pal from Ireland, but that's pretty much it lol, I haven't talked to anyone else in a while. Your appearance is nice though, because after struggling so hard to fit in with some people in the sw rp community, I feel less pressured now, and more comforted that there's someone else I know here.
@gingerorder I do remember her! I haven’t heard from her in a long time either. Honestly I’d read that story lol it sounds pretty fun to read. And, I doubt that nobody would like your story. Sure, there will be a few who dislike it—but there will always be critics. You’re an amazing writer, and I bet any story you write would take off in just a few short days. The plot sounds intriguing. I’d read it, and promote it as much as possible, if you decide to go through with it. Oh man, I feel that haha. I fortunately ended with all A’s last semester, but I had like 3 90% and that’s a little risky. Not bad, but risky. I just don’t want a repeat of 7th grade where I fail like 3 classes haha.. Man, I’m so sorry to hear that. Losing friends is definitely hard. Super hard. So is not being able to see them. My best friends live 12 hours away—my cousins and one other guy—so I never get to see them, so I guess I can somewhat relate, on a smaller scale. I’m glad to be able to hear from you, though.