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So slleepy wanna rewatcg donnie darko and also bang liam gallagher but i can only do one of those things sigh

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Watching blues clues feeling emotional

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All signs point to me needing to be horrifically underweight to even feel worthy of beinh alive
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Okay and now im a big jerk cause she jusr messaged me an apology wow im such a jerk such a bad person for feeling a certain way that makes you feel like a bad person wiw im so sorry
            
            
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I know i know probably overky emotional cause hormones or whatever but this has ALWAYS bothered me. I point it out too and everyone just denies denies denies like you could at least admit it and apologize like you mean it. But no
            
            And people wonder why im lonely as hell ok
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Iknow i should stop but i cant. Fuck. I was doing so good. 
          
          I havent binged in weeks. But then since like friday i cant stop myself. I did decent on concert day but…fuck. Im gonna get so fat
          
          When this fucking binge is over and im finally home aloen again im gonna work hard
          
          Everyone interrupting my routine caused this. Fuck. 

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Imnot even enjoying it. And im thinking consciously about it. I know i have to stop but i cant. God. Why why why
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Hoping maybe this breaks my plateau at least! Or maybe my plateau will prevent the weight gain! 
            
            Holy denial
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Dad gonna take me to see brand new this fall imso excuted thats like my second fav band (second only to my glorious circa of course)

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Also hawthorne heights was brought up but unlikely T^T
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MIGHT BE SEEING SILVERSTEIN AS WELL?????? WOWOWOWO
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I hate everything, especially myself. I’m so fucking hideous. This whole trip is a humiliation ritual. Thats what i get for being a disgusting pig i guess. 
          
          I wanna go home. Wanna be alone. But even there im not alone. Fuck this week and the next. I hate the world. 

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Been eating so much. Im gonna gain weight again. Sigh. Im so close to being in the 120s. But then everything had to go wrong. Cant workout with other people around. Have to eat around other people. I dont even enjoy it much anymore. I hate this stupid world and stupid calories and my stupid body and my stupid skin and my stupid face. Ill be pretty one day. Just doesnt seem like today is that day.  
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