Today is the day I admit it.
I’m depressed...I bet you’ve wanted to hear that for so long. Bet you wanted to see me in pain for all the misdeeds I’ve done to you. I acted like I didn’t care. I acted like a jerk..and I hate myself for it. I hate myself with every fiber of my being. I miss being the person that people could count on for a good joke or something but no. Now I’m just the loner that sits around silently, waiting to be picked on or judged in any way possible.
Today is the day I admit it.
I miss you...I miss you so much, I miss those days where we could see each other. When I looked into your eyes I saw happiness. All I want is to see that again. I want to feel like I didn’t fail, that I made someone happy. Someone that I loved.
Today is the day I admit it…
I want to die….but suicide isn't an option. Not yet.