Idot

I'm not fully healed, not fully wise nor fully mature but I'm trying to heal myself. Yes, it's hard to heal those wounds but I have to. You might not love me again but at least you love me once, it's hard to unlove you I don't know why. I know you might not see this but I just want to say thank you; thank you for loving me, thank you for taking good care of me, thank you for making me loveable. We have our own path to walk on and I hope you'll be doing well. I'm not doing this to win you again, to be held in your arms again, I just want to say those things that you should know. We didn't have a proper goodbye to each other, you just left without saying a word but I already accepted it. You have a reason why you did it naman eh. We both hurt and we need to heal those wounds. Moreover I just want to say sorry for everything I caused, I know it aches so much; and I hope one day you'll feel sorry for what you did. I admit, I have grudges on you but I realize that I need to let it go, It makes my heart heavier ehh. Maybe I just miss our memories, our late night talks, our bardagulan and everything. We have great memories, that's all. People come and go naman eh. Take good care emman. see yahh!!

Hello, my love, 
          Imissyousomuch! I hope you're doing well without me. But always remember that I will always love you and support you in every path you take. And I'm very sorry for everything I caused. I'm sorry for hiding my secrets on you but I didn't mean to hide it from you, nag-hahanap lang ako ng time para sabihin sayo yun pero naunahan na pala ako. I'm sorry my love kung sa iba mo pa yun nalaman, I'm very very sorry. I hope you'll forgave me. Mahirap man tanggapin ang sitwasyon natin ngayon pero kailangan. Oo, aminado akong miss na miss na kita, miss na miss ko na lahat tungkol sayo. Napaniginipan pa nga kita kagabi po. Tsaka love paki sabi kay tita "I'm sorry po". Alam kong hindi enough ang sorry ko sa lahat na pasakit na naibigay ko sa inyo love pero sana mapatawad mo ko soon. Naiintindihan kita kung bakit ka galit, at kung bakit hindi mo na kaya pang bumalik sa'kin. Naiintindihan ko rin si tita kung bakit siya galit sa'kin. Basta palagi mong tatandaan na "mahal na mahal kita, malayo ka man o malapit, at sususportahan kita palagi". Palagi mo ring tatandaan na ikaw at ikaw lang. Pinapangako ko sayo na hihintayin kita kahit ilang taon pa iyan, hihintayin kita. At kung darating ang oras na babalik ka sa 'kin ay nandito lang ako naghihintay sayo. Hope ko na ang pangako mo rin na sinabi mo sa kakila ko ay paninindigan mo. Iloveyoumoree love ko, adi ko, emman ko. 'Till our next eclipse, mwuaaa!

Hindi sa ayaw ko sa math pero na pre-pressure ako sa mismong sarili ko. Like lahat sila makaka recites in just one look in the equation, while ako ay kailangan pang maka takes ng ilang minutes. Nakakaintindi ako sa lessons lalo na sa math pero matagal nga lang sa pag-solve. Maybe hindi ko talaga deserve ang with high honor and I know that. Nag-wi-wish nga ako every night na sana kagaya ako ng kakaklase ko na magaling sa solving kahit hindi na kaylangan ng calculator. Na sana magaling ako sa speaking in english para hindi na 'ko mahirapang mag english. Pero wala ehh sadyang Tagalog lang talaga ang major ko.
          
          Kawawa naman ako na sobrang tagal mag process ang utak sa pagsasalita ng english at pagsosolve ng math : (
          
          Pwede lang wag mag-aral. Di na talaga ako mag-aaral : )
          Kung hindi lang para sa parents and siblings ko, hindi na talaga ako mag-aaral.

Having a supportive tatang and nanang are the best. I love you takkab lubong tatang @Eugenio and nanang @Nida. 

Hindi man ako vocal na tao mama at papa, mahal na mahal ko pa rin kayo. Kahit hindi ko yun mabigkas sa harapan niyo. Live long mama, papa. At pagkatapos na pagkatapos ko sa kolehiyo, let me handle na ang lahat. Pati na rin sa pagpapa-aral sa mga kapatid ko. Iloveyousomuchiee mama and papa. You're the most precious thing I've ever received in this wonderful world. Mwuaahh. 

Hindi ako satisfied sa work ko. Need ko munang ayusin then publish.