gay

and then i get hurt cuz they actually leave

but by the time they do that i get close to them thinking "nah they would leave me" haha 

cause at some point they realize im not worth their time and efforts and leave 

like my brain is just "youre a failure" "you disappoint everyone" "no one is proud of you" "no one would care if you kys" "no one really loves you" "everyone thinks youre annoying"  like please just  s t f u

just a thought... would anyone even care if i die lol not really

obache az realno naistina sum super tupa i ne znam kakvo da pravq

ne obache- bukbalno ne moga da kaja na nqkoi da mi prati resheniqta shtoto imam chuvstvoto che im dosajdam dostatuchno a ne moga i da kaja na mama da mi pomogne shtoto go pravq vseki put kogato imame matematika i imam chuvstvoto che shte si pomisli "bahmu i tupoto dete" (ok tva po-skoro bashta mi bi go kazal but still (dobre de mnogo dobre znam che mama nikoga ne bi kazala tova shtoto e mila ama vse pak))