BBB/Bun

Oh heavens. 
          The above. 
          The beneath is the scalding heat. 
          Aggriviating through the skin. 
          At every steps within the floor. 
          The flesh ripping within the boiled rocks. 
          The closer I am, the further you are. 
          Within the prayers, the chains twirling the bones. 
          Paralyzing the fingers from reaching forward. 
          The vapour, blinding into burning sensation. 
          Yet the search of your lingering fibre, no where to be seen. 
          The scaling temperature within you, no where to be felt. 
          The familiarity scent, no where to be inhaled.
          The memories, blurring of my own existance.
          The reason, the will, the you. 
          The ending script in ink. 
          Smeared all over. 
          Oh heaven above. 
          Rip me in shreeds. 
          Let me go back there. 
          Back to my home. 
          The tomb that I long for. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          (HEHEHEHE YEAHHHH I GOT THIS IDEA FROM A SONG IDK A RANDOM IDEA. But I think this may be slightly hard to understand? But is okay I will let it interpret by itselfffff MWAHHH) 
          
          

At one slip from the edge of a cliff, into the beneath of water body. 
          The soaked fabric dragging the weight into the abyss.
          The view fading at each struggle to fight against the aggression the fluids. 
          Bursting through the lungs of drowning to live.
          Is it the end?
          The one single wrong step, no excuses can be brought back up.
          The cold temperature within the wrist, replaced with a warmth grip.
          Pulled through the gash of sharpened aquatic breeze against the skin, till the view brightened.
          It's back, the one I must hold the palpitated heart within my grip. 
          Found me, before I could catch.
          How could I?
          How could you?
          How can I go back with you being my consequence?
          Just like you are my saviour.
          Teacher.
          Companion
          You are my curse too.
          My doom.
          I should've... done what? 
          If only the above game me the power.
          I would erase your memory of me.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          (HEHEHEHEHEHE I got this idea, prob cause I started reading something, and I was like ouuu yeahhh. However this one is related to this story I have been working on, which meh I do it whenever I remember atp bwahah. Though honestly my apologies for not updating at all, I have been really busy, even now, therefore I will update when I get more time. For now is a bit still meh. Thank youu)

Heyyy 
          If you are using Instagram may be you have noticed and if you have not then I have stopped using intsa for some time but I will be back with new account and whenever I'll be back I'll let you know.... You are a special friend to me so I'll connect to you soon... Bye miss you

Time passed by even further without the piece of fragment that is supposed to celebrate today. The remembrance is around. I forgot honestly, I guess is life, we are meant to let go. Thought about it, whats gone is gone. Is good to leave it, for it to be at peace rather than in roam for the cries. Unlike them, the expression is not laid out. Without it, is not the same anymore. I know you know. Unlike those around me. I can't do the same, however I will respect it, at least for this fragment that kept the little one safe till the last whistle. Though another realisation did bring back, I guess your year, will be my reminder. Rest well. Rest well as the time here will fly one by one. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          (Thought of giving a piece of my thought, and for others it's fine to have up and downs honestly, but don't let it devour you. It's okay to want to rely on others, it's not a burden. What's a burden is life anyways. So is okay, everyone's different, thats why we are hoomans. Also sorry I couldn't update the story. I felt quite dreaded honestly, but I feel much better now. So I will continue updating it. And please don't worry, I will finish this story off, I dont want to drag it.) 

Haha I realiaed I forgot to update. I will upload the next chapter on Monday, I have been busy. Sorry hoomans hehe. 

The weather changing within the days, to much colder. 
          Finger tips brightening red glacial, to be warmed by the other. 
          The tight grasp that lead through the vast breeze in warmth. 
          Despite all the raging emotions behind. 
          The patience twirling within laughter and smile. 
          Fuzzing the ear in heat. 
          Yet in silence admiring the view before letting it all go. 
          Afterall, each guidance comes with consequences.
          Pressing the greed down, to enjoy the moment before is let go. 
          Capturing each memories before they are wiped off. 
          Then back to many strings of the spider webs. 
          Before that string is cut through. 
          Breathe out the cold. 
          Wrap itself for warmth. 
          Gloves on. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          (Yes guys the weather is acc getting colder honestlyy, so make sure to keep yourselves warm!! Oh and also I decided for Who's the villain? I will update it every Thursday or Friday. Each chapter or maybe more than one. It will be completed definitely. I have been getting way too many ideas. Need to use them before they die out again MWAHH) 
          
          

I have decided to finish Who's the Villain. I have been getting a lot of inspiration. So I will finish this one.  

As the tiking time, passing through each of it. 
          Feeling the body frozen within. 
          No being able to breathe. 
          Not being able to move. 
          Mind blanking out. 
          Should you leave it or not. 
          Though you worked hard to get to the position now. 
          Yet at the single shaken time. 
          Trembles the open doors, wanting to shut again. 
          Whispering itself not to. 
          Chanting not to. 
          It's hard not to reach for it and close it. 
          How is someone not supposed to close that? 
          Temptation of stepping back raises at each deep breaths. 
          Wanting to close the view. 
          With questioning, why? Maybe it wasn't supposed to be them but me. 
          Every reason to keep going, its inutile. 
          No one is needed for it anymore so why continue? 
          Bullshit questions rousing around like a wasp. 
          Right the wasp. What a noise. What a gut retching feeling. 
          Wanting to throw all from the stomach, empty it. 
          Even through keeping it opening, feels the suffocation peaking through. 
          Maybe this is not the life that supposed to be. 
          Maybe one day will. 
          One day. 
          Day
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          (Meh idk ig is to show that its fine to feel certain way for certain things or everything, but dont give up, at least till the endd. Hope for it and work for it. Is what it is but yeahhh) 

Eye to eye. 
          Clasping each other's hands. 
          With pure hatred embedded within the heart. 
          Yet our gaze locked through each other's reflections.
          How did this occur? 
          I don't know. Neither do they. 
          Even though our face covered by a layer of mask
          The reflection unmasks the expressions.
          The yearning in denial. 
          We can't accept it. 
          Yet along the melody that waves through. 
          Chest to chest, in a heart beat we move along. 
          Wanting to step back, only to draw in closer.
          What would the eyes behind us think? 
          The fire and water dancing along. Laughable. 
          Despite the hatred.
          Memories overflow within the muscles, moving without a mistake. 
          Feeling the loosened grip on waist, lose on shoulder.
          However clutched tightly on each others hand, as if squeezing the remaining heart beats. 
          Neither wanting to let go, even through the hatred taking over. 
          The thin wall between us.
          Don't break. 
          Stay. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          (HEHEHEHEHEHEHHEE meh i got idea from edit as always, so why not. Honestly these days have been questionable but is what it is honestly. But yeah dont let it cloud the tiny good things that happens. Or regret will stay. ANYWAYS OMG I love the new update of Nikki!!!) 
          

The realization of some stuff always comeback. I wonder how long has been now? More than 5 months now? Yeah it definitely been quite long now. I didn't hear for it a long time. More like I ignored it till it got mentioned again. I can mention it fine, not until the details resurface. I do feel bad. Honestly I dont blame them. But I do. I am getting things done. I kept promises, haha but honestly is fine. Weather got much colder now. Its not bad. Prob is colder for you. I got a warm body still. Anyways is all good. 
          
          Just wanted to share that its okay to feel some way honestly, and miss things and let things change or resurface.