littlemissturnip

HEY EVERYONE !!! another chapter is finally out to 'ineffably effervescent flowers' (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠)
          	
          	i'm sorry for dipping for a little bit XDD besides spending my time returning to my hobbies and taking care of my physical health, i've been catching up with the rest i lacked back in college. it gets quite brutal, y'know :'))
          	
          	the 18th was the 1 year anniversary of the love of my life (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+ though we didn't see each other, the atmosphere of that day was soft, warm, and fond. i wish we did see each other that day though. 
          	
          	the chapter is especially long because i haven't been faring well mentally :')) is it fairing? faring? who knows? either way, i just needed to get it out of my system :')) my boyfriend's gonna know about that later on, when he finally knows this book exists (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧
          	
          	i'm hoping and praying things get better for me. slowly and surely, i can feel myself getting exhausted dealing with the darkness of my own mind. i don't want to wake up one day and think it's a losing battle. i don't want to be proven right by those whom i want to prove wrong. only then, am i sure that i'll be experiencing something much worse than death. i'm not sure what it is, but i'm hoping and praying i don't fail. just once. i don't want to fail in this life. this is all i have.

littlemissturnip

HEY EVERYONE !!! another chapter is finally out to 'ineffably effervescent flowers' (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠)
          
          i'm sorry for dipping for a little bit XDD besides spending my time returning to my hobbies and taking care of my physical health, i've been catching up with the rest i lacked back in college. it gets quite brutal, y'know :'))
          
          the 18th was the 1 year anniversary of the love of my life (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+ though we didn't see each other, the atmosphere of that day was soft, warm, and fond. i wish we did see each other that day though. 
          
          the chapter is especially long because i haven't been faring well mentally :')) is it fairing? faring? who knows? either way, i just needed to get it out of my system :')) my boyfriend's gonna know about that later on, when he finally knows this book exists (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧
          
          i'm hoping and praying things get better for me. slowly and surely, i can feel myself getting exhausted dealing with the darkness of my own mind. i don't want to wake up one day and think it's a losing battle. i don't want to be proven right by those whom i want to prove wrong. only then, am i sure that i'll be experiencing something much worse than death. i'm not sure what it is, but i'm hoping and praying i don't fail. just once. i don't want to fail in this life. this is all i have.

littlemissturnip

este mensaje puede ser ofensivo 
HEYYYYY GUYSSSSS :))))))
          
          so sorry for not updating the book in a while :'))) i've actually been hospitalized the next day after publishing the previous chapter and found out that i can definitely get bad guy anxiety... so, you guys better take good care of yourselves !!
          
          as a result, i've been brought back home earlier than my supposed date of departure. there are just a few things filling my head with worry right now, as well as just my thoughts in general being shit. guess that's another chapter for you guys, or just another night of me deeply pondering instead of sleeping at the right time LOL
          
          love you all !!!!!! <333333

littlemissturnip

HEY, EVERYBODY!!! A NEW CHAPTER!!!
          
          this chapter is fairly long, but that's alright -- i happily managed to encapsulate whatever i was feeling !!! i think this is one of my favorite chapters by far (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)
          
          i have been thinking of buying my boyfriend this brown leather bag that goes for cheap online but is of AMAZING quality. it even has a key buckle and everything that he may need in a bag ;)))) i will just have to schedule the time right so that i can receive it, ship it, and have him enjoy his new bag (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

littlemissturnip

A NEW LETTER IS OUT AT LAST (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧
          
          i've been feeling a little anxious this evening, especially because my boyfriend isn't feeling well. i sometimes feel like me being too anxious leads to me being too pushy—i do not want to make him feel suffocated around me. this kind of feeling sucks. i'll hold on to it for now, for him, so that he can rest well tonight. writing about it made me feel better, at least.
          
          on the other hand, i'm still so so happy to know my book reached 100 reads, and in just the span of 2-3 weeks !!! ╰⁠(⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠)⁠╯ once again, thank you guys so much for your support in this project of mine <3333 stay tuned for more !!!!! love you guys :)))))