littlered1970

Here the description of the new book I started just for everyone on Wattpad and everyone that I met on here and you get to interact through your comments on this one in I encourage it highly after you read the description of the book you will understand and it will help you too with what ever you're going through.
          	
          	this is different because this me adding my videos that I upload to my YouTube channel of how I express how I feel with music and you can comment if you can figure out how do you think I'm feeling or if it telling a story about me. a true story about me because it's how I can communicate better so you can understand me better and the real person behind the story you read and I write for you! I want to give to my fans that love my stories and the one that's been there since the beginning and Amy last but not least who became my best friend here on Wattpad and behind the scenes too. I hope that I'm blessed some day I get to meet her in person and that is Amy Schafstall @mommaoftwoawife thank you for being there for me. It really a lot to me deep within my heart and soul that's how much it means to me 

goldentrio90

Do you take evil version of Bella stories 

littlered1970

@goldentrio90 look please I understand you want to give me advice and change my main character but no! I write for a purpose and I write the way I want to write that's why I'm here and I been here for years not being asked to change it like this. Nope not doing it! Sorry but if you want evil and twisted version of my main character read somewhere please because I asked this please don't make me change my main character.
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goldentrio90

@littlered1970 ok what about LGBT version of Bella 
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littlered1970

@goldentrio90 what do you mean? Bella plays a certain characters in my story and why on earth would I turn her evil in my stories when I'm trying to also help people with my stories sorry but no. 
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littlered1970

Here the description of the new book I started just for everyone on Wattpad and everyone that I met on here and you get to interact through your comments on this one in I encourage it highly after you read the description of the book you will understand and it will help you too with what ever you're going through.
          
          this is different because this me adding my videos that I upload to my YouTube channel of how I express how I feel with music and you can comment if you can figure out how do you think I'm feeling or if it telling a story about me. a true story about me because it's how I can communicate better so you can understand me better and the real person behind the story you read and I write for you! I want to give to my fans that love my stories and the one that's been there since the beginning and Amy last but not least who became my best friend here on Wattpad and behind the scenes too. I hope that I'm blessed some day I get to meet her in person and that is Amy Schafstall @mommaoftwoawife thank you for being there for me. It really a lot to me deep within my heart and soul that's how much it means to me 

littlered1970

Sorry I only been doing one story! But I had to leave and where I went for a month and two weeks didn't have Internet so I only could work on treasure hunters offline because I knew where I left off on that one and went with that one and as soon as I got home I got the chapters up for you guys and the new book in the series started so I hope you enjoy it.

littlered1970

This really set me back and this is why I write my stories and go into details because everything that's happened to me since I was a child until now helps me to write such the details down for people to read so through your eyes and maybe in your mind you can see what happens to us. During and even after it's happened. 
          
          But also maybe the person that went through it or is still going through it it's a way to let them know they're not alone because I can of my free will which helps me heal too from it to write the complete details of what happens and if it happened to that person or is happening to them now.
          
          It proves they are not alone in this fight! If I can survive this so can they. That's why I can write through a child's eye to because it all started for me the day I was actually convinced by my parents and after I was born. 
          
          Then my storm happen and the storms kept coming from every direction. I call it a storm. On it hits you like a severe storm would hit you out of nowhere coming at you from all directions.
          
          That's why my true story is called my true storm. Yes it will take me time at my own pace to write it.
          
          Please don't pressure when are you going to work on this book or that book. If I'm focused on one book then that's what I'm focusing on at that time.
          
          I'm not forcing myself to do all the books at one time write now because I have to heal from what just happened.
          
          

littlered1970

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I want you all to know something very traumatic happened to me Monday and I was home alone when it happened and no I'm not alright at all .
          
          I did go to my counselor the next morning which was yesterday he named off what's going on with me right now.
          
          Because it's never happened to me with the pstd before and I really haven't been able to function at all because of it.  It shocked me so bad and at the same time terrified the fuck out of me. 
          
          As soon as I'm able to heal from this state I'm in now because of how bad I am right now I can't even think straight or focus on anything right now I'm too traumatized from what happened and two different things happened at the same exact time because of my PTSD what happened triggered a new thing with the PTSD.
          
          So now I have to learn how to control something new from it happening but this back to the beginning for me. Starting back from where I started before I finally did get help for the very first time with everything when I was diagnosed with PTSD, flash back and night terrors and all the other stuff that happened to me since I grew up.
          
          

littlered1970

Hey everyone give me time and I will be back! I'm dealing with a lot and almost tried to end my life! My service dog saved my life! I'm just reading right now and finally back in counseling! Plus I have a stalker from hell!! I don't pray that on anyone! So bare with me! Plus today we're having a lot of tornadoes!!!

AliciaJanaeAlexander

Take care of yourself and be safe 
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littlered1970

I'm finally back! But I want to tell you all my life isn't honky dorey or sunshine and rainbows right now either. I have a real life stalker again. I'm on total lock down at my house and can't leave my house unless someone is with me. This person is as stated he's coming to get me. It's that bad. Can't use anything but cash right now and no social media.. I'm allowed to be on here because writing is my life and therapy and I've been helped legally and safely to secure everything online now to protect me right now so I can keep writing until they can also find me a counselor the right one. I'm never left alone at home until further notice by authority's that it safe. They said I have enough proof to track down who this person is too. So I'm lucky I went about it the way I did to get the proof they needed.