I don't think people understand how stressful it feels to explain what's going on in that head of yours when you don't even know yourself. 

Grab a plate and throw it on the ground. 

- Okay, Done. 

Did it break? 

- yes. 

Now say sorry to it. 

-"sorry ".

Did it go back to the way it was before? 

- no. 

Do you understand? 
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Someone once asked me, 
"Why do you always insist on taking the hard road? "

I replied,
"Why do you assume that I see two roads? "
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She's been to the darkness of hell, endured the most desolate of times,  and has been made stronger through that endurance. 

Now she walks with the fearlessness of a wolf, bravery of a lion, and the fierceness of a dragon.