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More than a feeling

everything matters
          it is real
          it is deep

Missing home.

can you cradle me?..

Pls Kiss me tenderly.
          So I forget the pain I've endured

لَنْ تَعودَ حَتْماً.
          لَنْ يَعودَ شَيْءٌ كَالسّابِقِ بَيْنَنا.

I get so mad walking up to reality

Are these the lives that we have opted to lead?

I just keep taking refuge at places that hurt a little less than the last.

اِنْسَلَبَتْ مِنِّي أَمَانِي.
          أَصْبَحْتُ كَالطِّفْلَةِ، كَأَنَّ قَلْبِي الهَشَّ لَمْ يَحْتَمِلْ ذَلِكَ.
          فَمَا بِيدِي حَيْلَةٌ.
          إِنَّهَا لَيْسَتْ لِي.
          لَا أَمْلِكُهَا.
          لَيْسَتْ مِلْكِي.
          لَا يَحِقُّ لِي أَنْ أَكُونَ مُتَمَلِّكَةً هُنَا.
          أَنَا حَتْمًا لا شَيْءَ..