lo202020

***ranting of the day 
          got my heart broken today…
          i had lunch with my friend’s family and there he was, as always, but today he came with this girl
          i hadn’t realized i loved him that much before
          in september, we had agreed on a date at his place but he cancelled the day of the date and i stopped talking to him by pride
          he is much older that me but it didn’t stop my feelings to grow 
          now im feeling like shît because how am i supposed to tell my best friend that i felt in love with her uncle and that he broke my heart ?

i might delete the post when i wake up 
          don’t know if anyone’s actually gonna see it 

needed to rent about this somewhere because i have no irl to tell this to
          
          
          TW : SA
          
          
          
          this summer i went to a bar/club in the south of france with my two friends (we're french). i had a drink when this english guy came up to me and we started talking. he was highly drunk and very insistent on the fact that he wanted to kiss me. i said yes but told him we had to go further away from my friends because i was a bit shy to do it in front of them. so we went and kissed, he forced his tongue and touched me where i don't let any one touch me (i didn't even let him). he kept insisting and telling me that we should go somewhere else to f*ck while forcing his hand under my shirt/in my pants and i kept telling him no but he wouldn't stop until i told him it was harassment. 
          i know that if someone told me this, i would tell them that it's not their fault but i keep thinking that it was mine. i shouldn't have agreed to kiss, when i think about that night i feel disgusting.