lobeyouberrymuch

بحياتي ما توقعت واحد حاط صورة ميليودي غيري૮꒰˶ - ˕ -꒱ა

while everyone's out praying, your tongue in my mouth is my god

Somewhere
          In some other lifetime
          I roam free
          Strutting down my own lane, my way, no kings, no slaves
          But right now
          You got me in a chokehold, headlock, blindfold, don't stop 
          i don't need to see, have your way with me
          Keep me in the dollhouse, dressed up, perfect, messed up 
          Friendly as can be, have your way with me 
          Just prop me with my head high 
          Dollhouse, dressed up, perfect, messed up
          Torture me to sleep, paint the air I breath
          Fishbowl, chokehold, clear water, I'm cold 
          Perfect as can be, have your way with me
          Somewhere
          On some other timeline
          There's no price on me 
          Nothing to compete with, pray for, no games, no war
          I lay down
          Every night at sunset, glowing, fairytale, knowing
          Everything will be perfectly complete
          Happy ever after, gleaming, daytime, dreaming
          Once upon a time, in my brand new life
          You'll find me with my head high
          No longer dancing in your
          Dollhouse, dressed up, perfect, messed up
          Torture me to sleep, paint the air I breath 
          Fishbowl, chokehold, dirty water, I'm cold
          Heavy as can be, have your way with me
          All the trauma couldn't hold you down
          You're no victim, baby
          Oh, you're not a victim, baby
          I'm tellin' you
          I love it when you call me daddy
          Know I love it when you call me daddy
          Am I?
          Am I playing' all right now, daddy?
          Am I? Am I?
          Am I playing' all right now, daddy?

nothing beats doing the "we shouldn't be doing this" things with the "no one 
          should know that we're doing this" one

https://youtu.be/L9l8zCOwEII?si=lnMq8HTZI09fTyCD

nana once said loving someone is never a waste 
          yeah girl idk i just wasted two years of my life

breaking up is listening to every single song differently

يا وردتي إلي ذبلت, 
          بأوّل عمرها, 
          يا وسفتي ما لحكت اشتم عطرها

i'm sorry i let you down
          -why? 
          cause i'm not a good person
          -that's not true
          you don't really know me anymore
          -yes i do, i'm always with you

look me in the eyes and say that again
          ?say what again- 
          say that you'll chock me so hardly that i can't breath and that you'll slap me on my face and giving me spanks as punishments 'till my skin is unseen cuz of the signs you've left. and that you'll chock me again with your finger in my mouth and pushing so hardly. 
          say please and beg properly- 
          please, i'm begging
          ?please what exactly-
          please do it to me 
          ?i thought you said "say" that again-
          .it's not enough, ruin me