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As free as the ocean.

I still remember how painful that night was. How tired my eyes and heart was. I still remember how I almost ran out of my breath while I was crying, and how I was trying to stop the noise I could make. I will never forget how difficult it was for me. I will never forget that pain. 
          
          2024 was a hard year. 2024 was one of the worst years of my life.
          
          Deep down inside, I knew that I would never regret this because I believe everything happened for a reason even thought I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember.
          
          Thank you dearself for everything. I'm proud of you. We'll fight this journey together. 

How can emptiness be so heavy?

Believe in yourself.
          Have a bulletproof mind.
          Don't seek validation.
          There's nothing to prove to others.
          Know yourself.
          People will always have an opinion.
          Laugh it off, pay it no mind, certainly don't get provoked.
          Stand by what you believe in.
          Don't fold.

"But it made you stronger."
          
          I was a child.
          I didn't need to be stronger.
          I needed to be safe.

No matter how strong we are,
          Trauma always leaves a scar.

Sometimes, you need to take a break and disconnect, to heal.

"You are not late. You are exactly where you are supposed to be." 
          
          I wish..

Destroy yourself, to build yourself.

I'm at my lowest, again.