lonelycauliflower

Hello All....
          	
          	I'm lurking here again. Mental health is no joke. Depression is real, and it's really hard to find a fine chemical balance in my head. 
          	
          	Training and heavy weight lifting can help so much, but the voices in my head saying I am not good enough, I am not pretty enough, I am not worth it. . . Etc. 
          	
          	I found a great therapist who encouraged me to write again, however, even writing again is a hard task for me. 
          	Will I be enough for you guys? Will you like what I'm about to write? It's difficult, and I have so much on my plate, most days is just existing and carry through the next day, when everything starts over. 
          	
          	My demons never sleeps.
          	
          	Wishing you guys the very best day and hope you'll take me back to your loving arms and read my stories with the same enthusiasm as I'll write them again!
          	
          	Love & Peace,
          	
          	LC xox

gloommy123

@ lonelycauliflower  I genuinely hope you're doing great!
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JenLai29

Here to read whatever and whenever you decide to share next❣️
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lonelycauliflower

Hello All....
          
          I'm lurking here again. Mental health is no joke. Depression is real, and it's really hard to find a fine chemical balance in my head. 
          
          Training and heavy weight lifting can help so much, but the voices in my head saying I am not good enough, I am not pretty enough, I am not worth it. . . Etc. 
          
          I found a great therapist who encouraged me to write again, however, even writing again is a hard task for me. 
          Will I be enough for you guys? Will you like what I'm about to write? It's difficult, and I have so much on my plate, most days is just existing and carry through the next day, when everything starts over. 
          
          My demons never sleeps.
          
          Wishing you guys the very best day and hope you'll take me back to your loving arms and read my stories with the same enthusiasm as I'll write them again!
          
          Love & Peace,
          
          LC xox

gloommy123

@ lonelycauliflower  I genuinely hope you're doing great!
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JenLai29

Here to read whatever and whenever you decide to share next❣️
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lonelycauliflower

Hello to you All....a bit of confession time. Feeling guilty that I haven't been in touch with you guys. 
          A lot has happened (not only the pandemic) and finally I am able to say, that somehow I managed to pull myself out from the darkest of dark pit of my life and slowly getting back to ....normal(ish).
          My obsession with OSC hasn't faded, still can't believe that so many of you like Marian, Cairo, James and Greg's journey to love and acceptance. A huge thank you for everyone who reached out to me, and asked about my welfare.
          
          I appreciate You!
          
          Love,
          
          Lonely C. ♡

lonelycauliflower

@lellan75 thank you ❤️ I started to write again! 
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lellan75

@lonelycauliflower I know good things will come your way, stay strong! When ever you're ready to come back, we will be here waiting.. <3
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JenLai29

Welcome back 
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JenLai29

Hello, I came across an old comment of yours on a story I’m reading and was wondering how you are; just curious if you’re thinking about updating OSC again, no pressure XOXO

lonelycauliflower

@JenniferLaird6 hi...I'm not sure tbh, my life is kinda hectic atm ... thanks for reaching out and taking the time to write to me. Appreciated it a lot. I think my biggest problem with Osc is that I don't really know how to finish it. Hence I stopped uploading.
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lonelycauliflower

Hey Lovelies,
          
          Hope you are all staying safe and good health! I just wanted to say thank you for you all for your outpouring love and encouragement in this difficult time! 
          
          You are all awesome! 
          You all deserve a medal! 
          Ily all! 
          
          I'm trying to finish up my projects so I can focus on OSC more. New chapter is coming soon! 
          
          Stay tuned!
          
          Happy reading,
          
          LCF~ 

lonelycauliflower

Hey Lovelies,
          
          Hope you are having a wonderful day! 
          Just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate your support, I have been through a lot lately. I have lost a very important friendship and I'm still reeling of the loss and grieving hard. 
          
          I have updated a new chapter of O.S.C. if you wish, please read it, comment and vote. I'd really love if someone point out spelling or grammar mistakes as it wasn't edited or proofed. 
          
          Thanks a million! 
          
          Love you All. 
          
          LCF~ 

lonelycauliflower

I have a really strong personality. It is difficult to live with me. But I have not expected to be kicked out from my place because I work with Covid positive patients.
          
           I feel betrayed by my friend (who holds legal rights to this apt). 
          
          I went through a very depressive stage since last November, contemplated suicide a few times but I decided not to go through with it. I shall pull myself together and carry on. This is a new chapter in my life, and I urge everyone, especially during this awful pandemic that you need to reach out if you suffer from any kind of mental health issues.  Reach out, to your physician,your relatives, old friends, anyone. Suicide is never the answer. 
          
          Love you All!

lonelycauliflower

@magicbooksofkpop I actually laughed out .... thanks you mofo! 
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magicbooksofkpop

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@lonelycauliflower YOU A BAD BITCH WHEN THINGS GO WRONG JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE A BAD BITCH PERIODTTT AND NO ONE WILL PULL YOU DOWN ☺
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lonelycauliflower

@Visualdiva I shall do that! Thank you so much ❤ from the bottom of my heart. 
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