lonelymoon

Heyyyyyyy! How are you all doing?
          
          I’m crying in my room because… finally, the last chapter of “The Unexpected Bloody Love” is out.
          The title? “In the Name of Love: Mr and Mrs. Cardozo.”
          
          And now… it’s time to mark the book complete. I don’t even know what to feel.
          Five years. It took me five years to write this story. I grew up with it.
          I learned so many things while writing this book, and I still can’t believe that Aiden and Amelia are no longer my ongoing project—
          They’re my finished and completed work now. 
          
          From the bottom of my heart, thank you all for your love, your support, your comments, your presence.
          You helped make this story what it is.

Hi my dearest readers,
          
          How have you all been? It’s been a while since I showed up here, months, actually. I haven’t written much, nor have I touched anything related to this project. Life threw a heavy stone at me, and for nearly three months, I was just trying to survive the next 24 hours.
          
          Then came a short break… followed by another blow.
          I’m still standing a little bruised, some wounds healing, some reopening, and a few leaving quiet scars.
          
          These past months taught me so much about life, pain, patience, and surrender. They’ve made me more humble than I’ve ever been. I also took time off from my academic world, and I promised myself I’d try to enjoy that break, even with everything going on.
          
          April 11th marked five years since Aiden and Amelia came to life. I didn’t forget. I could never. But I didn’t have the energy to come here or even post on Instagram to honor them. I miss my babies more than anyone could know.
          
          I didn’t work on the project, but I did write a few pieces of poetry from the heart, as always. Maybe one day, you’ll stumble upon them at the end of a random chapter.
          
          I hope to return soon and finally bring this story to its ending, one that’s been waiting for far too long. I’ve put this project on pause for years… and maybe, just maybe, it’s time I stop being a lazy dreamer and become the writer my younger self always believed in.
          
          Till next time, 
          Take care of yourselves, always.
          With love,
          Lonelymoon

HEEEYYY! HOW ARE YOU ALL?
          
          On October 29, 2024, I announced I was going on hiatus due to personal reasons. That day, it felt impossible to breathe, to live. My world was falling apart, and from then on, life kept throwing challenge after challenge my way, never giving me a break. The past month and a half have been some of the toughest days I’ve faced. But here I am—I survived. Gritting my teeth, life knocked me down every single day, but with a bruised heart and mind, I got back up every time.
          
          Things are still tough, but I’m grateful for those tough days. Now that I’ve finished my semester (without any plans for the next one yet), I told myself, “Let’s survive December. If we make it to January, we’ll figure it out.”
          
          Once my exams ended, I made a list of things I wanted to do. Despite everything, my heart felt empty. That’s when I realized: I have to go back to writing. Even during my hiatus, I couldn’t fully let go—I kept editing chapters, jotting down ideas, and adding small details.
          
          So, on December 23, 2024, at 8:15 PM, I finally opened my draft and started editing. I re-read what I’d written and thought, This is perfect. A few tweaks were all it needed. That’s how I made my comeback. I wanted to announce something dramatic, like, “Hey, I’m back!”—but honestly, I felt embarrassed doing so without a new chapter ready. So, I quickly polished things up, and here we are.
          
          I have a little treat for you—some behind-the-scenes moments will be uploaded on my Instagram, so feel free to check those out if you’re curious!
          
          And just a heads-up, we’re nearing the end. Only one more chapter left—followed by what might be called an epilogue (though, funnily enough, I don’t have a prologue).
          
          Finally, I want to say how happy I am to be back. I’m so proud of each of you for thriving, surviving, and moving forward, no matter the challenges you face. Remember, you’ve got this, and I believe in you.
          
          TAKE CARE (:

Hi everyone! How have you all been? It’s been such a long time since I last posted here, and I’ve really missed this safe space, my lovely readers, and my dear Aiden and Amelia. I've come to realize that writing helps me feel better and lets me release my emotions.
          
          Since November, life has been quite hectic. It feels like every time I stand up, something new is thrown my way. There have been days when I cried four to five times, and I’m not exaggerating. There were moments when all I wanted to do was stay in bed, but my schedule demanded that I keep going. I showed up even when I wanted to scream, cry, and create chaos; I held myself together and acted as if everything was perfect. I know you all do the same, and I’m so proud of you for not giving up.
          
          Right now, I have my finals coming up, and I should be studying, but I'm here because I’ve missed all of you. Whenever people ask me about my plans for 2025, I tell them to let me survive December first. To be honest, I have no idea what the future holds.
          
          I’m not even sure if I will complete my education or not. But regardless of what happens, I will always try to show up here for all of you.
          
          Until next time, take care of your health, and don’t forget to rest!

Yooooo!!!
          
          Why am I getting so many readers from across the world when I am on hiatus (crying)?  This gesture is so heartwarming to me. 
          
          Update: things are still bad and I do not know what will happen in 2 months/ 1 month but what I know is that I need to do my best, so if everything works out, I can be ready. 
          
          Also, someone told me, "What if something is hidden behind all these? Something way better ?"
          
          So, yeah! My head and my brain are fighting every day. I won't give up. I came this much. I cannot give up.
          
          Take care <3.

Hi, how are you?
          
          With a broken heart, I am here to inform you that I am going on a hiatus until when I don't know. 
          
          Today, something hit me so hard that now all I want to do is just survive today. I don't want to think at all about anything. I just want to do my best ONLY today. Just leaving the bed was hard for me. My eyes kept tearing up each time I thought about the blow. 
          
          I kind of expected this blow. Even though it is not my first time yet it hurt. 
          
          That's why all I want to prioritize is my study and to seek the solution for that issue. 
          
          I hope you understand. Take care <3.
          
          I will come back as soon as I can. I can not stay away from my babies for a long time. 
          
          I can survive this again.

@psyco_berry12  Heeeyyyyy!!!!! How are you? I am glad that I was able to support you and cheer you during that time. Congratulations for 1k reads. Waiting to see moorreee. 
          
          BTW, how did you find me? 
          
          I am sorry that I couldn't continue reading your book. Life got so busy when I started the university.
          
          What is R4R?
          
          Take care and please please continue writing.

Hiiiii!! How are you all doing??
          
          I am doing well, finished the midterms but the grades were not that good (:( 
          
          Anyway! Relaxed a bit for one week only doing some basic things but the coming week is going to be so hectic. That does not mean I am not writing. I still cannot find the you know that feeling, the perfection. I feel something is lacking. 
          
          On top of that, last night when I was reading my 2nd story's draft, I was like, 'Woah! What a nice piece of magic waiting in my draft.'
          
          All is a mess. You will see when I publish the next chapter. I cannot write when there is no motivation to create something new.
          
          Anyway, till next time, take care <3.

Hiiii,,,,
          
          I didn't forget about any of you. I have been so busy with my midterms. 4 more to go, and they are killing me (:(: even the weekend is for studies. 
          
          I have been studying......
          
          
          Bye. I hope I will update soon and at least the university will give me a break to update.

One thing I've learned recently is the significant difference between high and low literature, as well as the gap between readers who have studied literature and those who have not. These groups approach books in different ways, seeing and interpreting them through distinct lenses. Of course, I’m not saying that if you haven’t majored in literature, you can’t enjoy or understand a book. Reading, like any form of art, is subjective and personal.
          
          The reason I bring this up is that I’ve become more aware of the critiques of my writing. However, it wasn’t until I started deeper studies in literature that I truly understood where my work might be lacking and how I could improve. My mind has been blown by what I’m learning in my classes, and this new knowledge will influence the way I approach my writing.
          
          There will be many changes to my book, either before or after I mark it complete. I can’t promise exactly when, as balancing studies and work is quite challenging. Writing is difficult when my mind is cluttered with tasks, but I’m committed to improving.
          
          So, feel free to criticize my work as you see fit. Every comment helps me grow.