lonelymoon

HEEEYYY! HOW ARE YOU ALL?
          
          On October 29, 2024, I announced I was going on hiatus due to personal reasons. That day, it felt impossible to breathe, to live. My world was falling apart, and from then on, life kept throwing challenge after challenge my way, never giving me a break. The past month and a half have been some of the toughest days I’ve faced. But here I am—I survived. Gritting my teeth, life knocked me down every single day, but with a bruised heart and mind, I got back up every time.
          
          Things are still tough, but I’m grateful for those tough days. Now that I’ve finished my semester (without any plans for the next one yet), I told myself, “Let’s survive December. If we make it to January, we’ll figure it out.”
          
          Once my exams ended, I made a list of things I wanted to do. Despite everything, my heart felt empty. That’s when I realized: I have to go back to writing. Even during my hiatus, I couldn’t fully let go—I kept editing chapters, jotting down ideas, and adding small details.
          
          So, on December 23, 2024, at 8:15 PM, I finally opened my draft and started editing. I re-read what I’d written and thought, This is perfect. A few tweaks were all it needed. That’s how I made my comeback. I wanted to announce something dramatic, like, “Hey, I’m back!”—but honestly, I felt embarrassed doing so without a new chapter ready. So, I quickly polished things up, and here we are.
          
          I have a little treat for you—some behind-the-scenes moments will be uploaded on my Instagram, so feel free to check those out if you’re curious!
          
          And just a heads-up, we’re nearing the end. Only one more chapter left—followed by what might be called an epilogue (though, funnily enough, I don’t have a prologue).
          
          Finally, I want to say how happy I am to be back. I’m so proud of each of you for thriving, surviving, and moving forward, no matter the challenges you face. Remember, you’ve got this, and I believe in you.
          
          TAKE CARE (:

Hi everyone! How have you all been? It’s been such a long time since I last posted here, and I’ve really missed this safe space, my lovely readers, and my dear Aiden and Amelia. I've come to realize that writing helps me feel better and lets me release my emotions.
          
          Since November, life has been quite hectic. It feels like every time I stand up, something new is thrown my way. There have been days when I cried four to five times, and I’m not exaggerating. There were moments when all I wanted to do was stay in bed, but my schedule demanded that I keep going. I showed up even when I wanted to scream, cry, and create chaos; I held myself together and acted as if everything was perfect. I know you all do the same, and I’m so proud of you for not giving up.
          
          Right now, I have my finals coming up, and I should be studying, but I'm here because I’ve missed all of you. Whenever people ask me about my plans for 2025, I tell them to let me survive December first. To be honest, I have no idea what the future holds.
          
          I’m not even sure if I will complete my education or not. But regardless of what happens, I will always try to show up here for all of you.
          
          Until next time, take care of your health, and don’t forget to rest!

Yooooo!!!
          
          Why am I getting so many readers from across the world when I am on hiatus (crying)?  This gesture is so heartwarming to me. 
          
          Update: things are still bad and I do not know what will happen in 2 months/ 1 month but what I know is that I need to do my best, so if everything works out, I can be ready. 
          
          Also, someone told me, "What if something is hidden behind all these? Something way better ?"
          
          So, yeah! My head and my brain are fighting every day. I won't give up. I came this much. I cannot give up.
          
          Take care <3.

Hi, how are you?
          
          With a broken heart, I am here to inform you that I am going on a hiatus until when I don't know. 
          
          Today, something hit me so hard that now all I want to do is just survive today. I don't want to think at all about anything. I just want to do my best ONLY today. Just leaving the bed was hard for me. My eyes kept tearing up each time I thought about the blow. 
          
          I kind of expected this blow. Even though it is not my first time yet it hurt. 
          
          That's why all I want to prioritize is my study and to seek the solution for that issue. 
          
          I hope you understand. Take care <3.
          
          I will come back as soon as I can. I can not stay away from my babies for a long time. 
          
          I can survive this again.

Hey!! R4R?? (You had checked on my book years back! And you were the person who told me I had reached 100 views back in 2022!) Anyways thank you for the support you gave me back then <3

Hiiiii!! How are you all doing??
          
          I am doing well, finished the midterms but the grades were not that good (:( 
          
          Anyway! Relaxed a bit for one week only doing some basic things but the coming week is going to be so hectic. That does not mean I am not writing. I still cannot find the you know that feeling, the perfection. I feel something is lacking. 
          
          On top of that, last night when I was reading my 2nd story's draft, I was like, 'Woah! What a nice piece of magic waiting in my draft.'
          
          All is a mess. You will see when I publish the next chapter. I cannot write when there is no motivation to create something new.
          
          Anyway, till next time, take care <3.

Hiiii,,,,
          
          I didn't forget about any of you. I have been so busy with my midterms. 4 more to go, and they are killing me (:(: even the weekend is for studies. 
          
          I have been studying......
          
          
          Bye. I hope I will update soon and at least the university will give me a break to update.

One thing I've learned recently is the significant difference between high and low literature, as well as the gap between readers who have studied literature and those who have not. These groups approach books in different ways, seeing and interpreting them through distinct lenses. Of course, I’m not saying that if you haven’t majored in literature, you can’t enjoy or understand a book. Reading, like any form of art, is subjective and personal.
          
          The reason I bring this up is that I’ve become more aware of the critiques of my writing. However, it wasn’t until I started deeper studies in literature that I truly understood where my work might be lacking and how I could improve. My mind has been blown by what I’m learning in my classes, and this new knowledge will influence the way I approach my writing.
          
          There will be many changes to my book, either before or after I mark it complete. I can’t promise exactly when, as balancing studies and work is quite challenging. Writing is difficult when my mind is cluttered with tasks, but I’m committed to improving.
          
          So, feel free to criticize my work as you see fit. Every comment helps me grow.

45k?!!!!
          
          Thanks alootttttttttttttttt.

Guess what? I didn't lose more than 3 in the big assignment. So, I don't know how, but I finally completed the next chapter. A few things left like the dress, the food, and more descriptions. 
          
          But officially, it is done. However, you know that I wait till I am satisfied with what I wrote. So I don't know how long you need to wait.
          
          Bye. I still have 1 more lecture left.(:(