justadeadpoet

how do I become myself again?

no joke my cousin and I are the only people in our grade at school. there are literally 15 kids in the whole school here and most of them are year 7... yikes!

Sorry for the rant, once again my mind is drifting off in class... 
          
          there are 10 people from all the classes in my grade all put together in one class and it's actually more fun than staying at home!!! It's weird. I kinda feel sorry for the kids that didn't come because 1. the teachers can't give you more work, 2. you're all in one class with all your friends because there isn't anyone, 3. if you finish all your work you basically get free periods, 4. you get a whole 2 desks to yourself and can be alone, 5. random teachers get set to your class so you can get the ones you like which I have been getting (yay), 6. you don't get homework, and the list goes on. Yes, this is a really bad thing going around but it's helping out in life to me. I'm really happy and I kinda feel bad about it. 
          
          (Is this weird????)
          
          Anyway WOOOO! Jeez, my mind is messed up!

i’m so bored and basically fell asleep 
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@_NotAHuman_ you did it anyway!!!! you're so sweeeettttttttt ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

happy lonely people dayyyyyy!!!!!!
          
          welcome to the day that is supposed to be about love but is basically another excuse for everyone to be really lonely!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so sorry for the rant you're about to have read... if you don't wanna see this move on.
          
          SO, there is a person at school and he's new and everyone wants to talk to him right? But, he's alone a lot and I would love to talk to him but, I'm too scared and I'm this way with a lot of people and I don't know how to fix it. Even with my family, I'm like this and I really need help. I want to be a good person but, my mind keeps getting in the way and I think that's what it is. My mind has never stopped thinking and buzzing. I plan thousands of things in my head as I talk to one person. Is that normal? But I'm so scared they're not going to like me and just hate me. Does anybody know how to fix this? Tips on how to talk to new people?

Morning 
          I’m still rlly sleepy at 6:50 ??? 

english.... :?
          what do you guys think bout english??

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