Project_Change

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Hey! Im responding to your account bio. I have tried to kill myself several times. I was in a place where I became physically addicted to cutting and other forms of self-abuse. I felt something like voices in my head, they told me I was a piece of @@@@ and I should kill myself. I didn't think life was worth it in my depression that had been with me all my life. I became suicidally OBSSESSED, trying to kill myself almost every week. Ultimately, my purpose was to cut my own throat out.
          
          But I believe God didnt let me. Even though I thought I was disgusting and unfit to exist, that my mistakes were irreperable and I was hated by God, it turns out the opposite was true. And the voices that said otherwise were all liars. Id like to tell you that even though it may not seem like it, you matter, you are loved. I know that  pain may seem like an eternity but it will never hold a candle to how much you are loved by Jesus!
          
          And I wont be one of those people who lie and say "And I prayed and then God just magically cleaned up all my problems". It took pain. It took sacrificing things I didnt want to. But my God Jesus Christ for some reason loved me, for some strange reason that's beyond me, even though I was disgusting, I had anger, lust, pride, shame, fear, brokenness and depression in my heart, He wanted a relationship with me, if I would have it; and He showed me the love He has for me and helped me with my gigantic problems.
          
          And I just wanted to tell you that so that hopefully you would find something about my story encouraging! I know that Jesus loves us! I want you to know that you DO MATTER, YOU ARE LOVED, don't you dare ever let anyone else (including yourself!) tell you otherwise! I would like to PM you if you want, just about anything or nothing at all if you would like!