IraDeshpande
Hey love
How are you?
louified
louified
I miss him. It feels stupid but it’s the truth. I can’t get rid of the feeling that I got when I first saw the news, it feels like yesterday. I cried for 4 hours straight ffs it was my birthday. I had to pretend to be happy, put on a show. Cried myself to sleep too. I just want to not be sad anymore about this and everything else.
louified
@THE_MALIKS yeah idk why I do that, I think it’s mostly bc no one irl understands me ykwim? so I just call my feelings ‘stupid’. I’m here if you ever wanna vent abt it babes, yeah? xx
louified
I cried bc my best friend liked my insta story (I haven’t talked to her in 9?months) I miss her sm.
louified
Why do I get so emo sometimes lol. Everything is okay even when it’s not.
louified
It’s been an awhile since I thought about being queer. It hits me sometimes, how it will affect my life in the long run. I saw an article today which said "parents die by suicide after son decides to marry long term transgender partner" I can’t get myself to feel sad for them as horrible as that sounds.
I’ve sort of come to terms that if I’m not accepted by my parents(most probable scenario), it will be okay bc if I know them at all then I know they’ll deny that part of me but they will not stop loving me. They won’t believe me, they’ll think it’s a phase but it’s okay bc it has to be yk? It’s pretty fuvking sad to think about that I’m never truly myself around my family. It’s okay. It has to be.
louified
@Charlie131D thank u xxx That’s good to hear, that sounds like so much fun love!! I’m alright, a lil bored tho.
Charlie131D
@louified ur sweet too luv xx (Thank you, me too haha. I’m acc ntb, me & another 1D fan I met online we’re sending each other concert videos haha. Hru babes?
louified
What if I do end up dying alone?
louified
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Fuck i need to watch a cute ass queer movie asap, how am I supposed recover from this?
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Orrr should I just double down on the pain and watch holding the man? That’ll properly fuck me up
louified
Why did I think that watching “all of us strangers” was a good idea? I can’t stop crying. Genuinely.
My heart is broken. Why? Why was this such a sad movie? Why? Why did I watch it?
I’m gonna have a pounding headache when I wake up, plus it’s like 4:30am and I haven’t slept. I think this movie broke me, I’m just FUVK.
Okay the headache has started, I’ll stop crying now (I’ll try anyway)
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@PippinIsTheBest EXACTLY IT WAS SO FUCKING DEPRESSING I’m so heartbroken, the ending truly fucking killed me. </3
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OMG I LITERALLY WATCHED THAT LAST WEEK
AND I CRIED TOO
Like WTF I just wanted a queer film I did not want FUCKING DEPRESSION
louified
Now that you I’ve calmed down a bit, I think it’s a great movie. I’m so sad bc of this movie but I still love it. It’s one of a kind I feel? It’s unique. Also don’t watch any spoilers, I like the elements of surprise it has.
I’m just gonna take a shower cause idt I’ll be able to sleep now.
louified
What’s one unpopular/controversial opinion that you have?
Mine is that I like Chicago better than waoyf. I’m sorry I’m a Chicago girlie through and through ToT
Also I think that if you tell me you like Indian food but only ever have chicken tikka masala then you haven’t had Indian food ✋ (although idk if this is an unpopular opinion or not)
louified
@THE_MALIKS I hadn’t even noticed that she has a tooth gap (I just searched her and noticed) it actually looks good on her tho?? You should have seen my friends boyfriend he genuinely looked bad bc of it T-T (nah you won’t get cancelled people say worse things lol)
THE_MALIKS
@louified saw a reel of gracie abrams- i might get cancelled for this. but hey i like her songs. thats the thing that matters
louified
@THE_MALIKS *gasp* what if I had a tooth gap?( I don’t lol) But yeah so true, one of my ex friend, he had a boyfriend with a tooth gap and we all used to just act like it wasn’t a big deal bc like our friend really liked him ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
louified
Happy birthday Louis. God knows how much I love you (it’s an unhealthy amount) ❤️