louisHOMEMADEmash11

I hate being perceived so much, it literally takes over my life

louisHOMEMADEmash11

@harryssweethoney omg for a long time I thought I was the only one who felt like that. At least we’re not alone with it :)
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louisHOMEMADEmash11

Apparently Liam has a new song but idk how to listen to it…

louisHOMEMADEmash11

@loubringmehome- thank you sooo much. Idk why it was so hard to figure out lmao
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loubringmehome-

@louisHOMEMADEmash11 it's just part of it, the full song has not been released yet
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louisHOMEMADEmash11

I have a maths test tomorrow and I haven’t studied at all (it’s only an end of chapter test but still). So now it’s 11:50pm and I’m finish homework due tomorrow while studying for like 5 minutes. I finished reading powerless and I cried so much omg 

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I’m reading Powerless rn (the one by Lauren Robberts, not the hockey one) and it’s so good but Istg if they don’t kiss soon I’m going to kill them. Small spoilers below of my telling you how far I am that they still haven’t kissed. 
          
          I’m on chapter 53, page 433 and they’ve just been interrupted before kissing. If I’m not responding within 24 hours then assume I used all of my strength to kill this book as if it’s alive and then died from the impact and effort. 
          
          I also might be making another announcement later screaming about them finally kissing. 

louisHOMEMADEmash11

Well didn’t that take a turn 
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I’m having a small crisis. So around 4 weeks from now I have to pick 4 subjects I’ll study for the next 2 years at school and they’ll be the basis of what I do at college/uni if I go and probably my job when I’m older. I’ve always wanted to be an artist or something to do with art at least so I think I’m picking art. It might be helpful to have a 3rd language too so I’ll pick French because I’ve studied it for 3 years so it would obviously be easier than starting a new one. But then I have 2 more to pick and I have no idea. I’ve recently realised I don’t know if I want an art career and it’s thrown me off everything. 
          
          This is so random but I love the idea of being an art teacher but not in a school instead in my own art studio type of place where I teach kids and maybe write/illustrate books too. So I need to look for college courses that I could use for that kind of thing and then pick 4 subjects based on the courses and my career idea. 
          
          If you can’t tell I needed to organise my brain so I can sleep. 

tpwk271

business is always a good subject to take ! (i’m from uk so not sure how dif countries uni applications are) but i do believe with a business higher it’s seen as good ?  
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louisHOMEMADEmash11

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!! 
          
          I didn’t cry this year yayyyy. I did the last 2 years lmao. I can’t even remember why last year but the year before was because I didn’t think I’d still be here to make it through to the next year. I like this because I can see the progress. It can feel slow sometimes but things like this remind me that I’m doing so much better than I was before. 
          
          Also wattpad is the only place I’ve ever spoken about this (Being suicidal from 12). None of my family friends know and I’ve never gotten professional help. So while it’s not exactly healthy I’m still proud of myself for getting through all of this (still not completely fine but anyway) by myself.