To my followers about the suicide thing about the triggers I want you guys to know I never tried to commit suicide, I lost a friend through suicide right after graduation he was my best friend so that's what I mean about me having triggers it reminds me of finding out that I lost him and knowing I won't get to see him again, I'm sorry if I freaked any of you guys out about the triggers and making you think that I tried just wanted you guys to know it wasn't me trying, it was the fact that I lost one of my best friends that was funny and adorable and one of a kind, just wanted to let you guys know!!!!!