Chasing growth meant leaving behind the comfort of the familiar. But sometimes, I still wonder what I lost in the process.
If I had stayed, would things have continued to grow, or would they have fallen apart anyway?
The truth is, I’ll never know. I’m chasing a ghost of what could’ve been, haunted by what ifs and the lingering thought that maybe, just maybe, I could’ve shaped the present into something different.
I think every parent, every grandparent, has faced something like this, the quiet ache of choices made, paths taken or not.
The ghost we chase can be a person, a decision, a moment when we wish we had acted differently. Sometimes, we think we could have saved it. Sometimes, we think we could have saved ourselves.
But at the end of the day, after all the circling thoughts and endless what ifs, it’s still just a ghost, one that will always find a way to haunt you.
The song “Multo” by Cup of Joe really embodies how the past lingers like a presence you can’t quite touch, but never fully let go of.