i don’t think i ever updated any of the readers on the status of “want u with me” and for that, i apologize i really thought i did at some point!! so i’m currently unsure whether i’ll ever write it again. as any older readers would know, it is personal to me and i wrote it to relieve the feelings of longing i had. at first it worked and i loved writing it and i tried hard every time, but as i wrote it closer and closer to the point where they meet each other finally, it started to hurt more and my feelings of longing became more intense and i didn’t know how to write it anymore. i stopped because i didn’t know how to continue and i still don’t know how.
i’ve been in a ldr for almost 3 years, i love my partner dearly and everyday i wish to see them and even be in the same country as them. i want the simplest things every non-ldr couple has, but it’s very difficult. i wanted to make clear that writing that story was never easy for me to do, but i did it to try and release because i didn’t know how else to express myself without seeming like i was sad all the time (aka, poetry). the need to see them and touch them is still as great as it was when i was writing it last year, hence the struggle to write it is just as hard.
again i’m sorry for abandoning it without a word. maybe i’ll come back to it one day, but not yet.