Me

Hey hi.. 
          I liked ur story falling for my best friend. But m lil disappointed with the kind of pain Aiden has to suffer. I loved him when I started the story. And sort of got connected with him. Cz it might b cz i like possessive overprotective guys. Here is a request if u can agree.. please can u continue life of aiden with happy ending for him 2. N if possible make an indian girl named Prabha (nickname prabs) as his girlfriend....pleaseeeee

Think before you speak, act, and live. In the end, you are all that you have, and you will create what your life will be. Don't allow yourself to miss out on opportunities because you are afraid of change. We are all afraid of change, afraid of things not coming to fruition in the way that we plan. Don't allow yourself to live with a bad attitude about life, about people, because those feelings will reflect in everything you do. People will notice and feel the imbalance of your emotions. People will see that cloud hanging over you when you step into a room. Taking everything I have said into account, that we control our own lives, you are also able to choose how you feel. You, as your own human being, are able to express the way that you are. With doing so, you are able to depict your own thoughts, and share your heart with others. Don't bring others into the same state you are in because you have spread that energy. Live to bring happiness not only to yourself, but also to others. Being content, being satisfied with life and how you feel, is the best feeling in the world. You, and everyone else deserve to know how that feels. Work for that. Live for that. Strive for that. Don't lose sight of your goals, the person you are and want to be, because of how you are feeling right now. You will not feel the way that you do right now forever. You will make it through, and you will come out stronger and happier than you were before.
          Not only is this message for you,
          but it is also for me.

I have noticed that I often find myself in a state of deep thought. It's not unusual for myself to seclude myself from the outside world and think about my life, why situations occur, and why things are the way that they are. Therefore, assessing matters so deeply leads me into this 'take charge' attitude. I have always been a person of initiative,  a person who sets plans into action, who solves problems and views situations impulsively. However, when I get into that 'take charge' mood, I sometimes seek solace and freedom from whatever may be plaguing my mind. Sometimes I want to retreat, leave everything behind and move on. I want you to know that it is perfectly okay to release yourself from a burdening situation, person, or idea. You are not being held against your will to stay in your anxiety. You are not being forced to feel depressed, or angry, or uncomfortable. I cannot emphasize enough how we are the own creators of our lives. Though the word is chaotic and you may not feel in control of your own destiny, I want you to know that you are. We can decide to stay complacent in our adversary, and we can also decide to move, or to change the outcome. DO NOT let your feelings tell you how to live. Your feelings are liars. Your feelings are impulsive and quick to the draw. They will not stay with you your whole life. You will not find yourself depressed over a job you didn't get when you're retiring.

We could all easily sit around and feel pity for ourselves. We all go through things, we all run into road blocks and obstacles. However, the choice is OURS to decide to dwell upon those issues, or move on. I've always said that life will never wait for you to figure things out; it is always moving, and the hands of time will not stop for anyone. Don't spend your life in the past. Don't allow yourself to become depressed over things that you can't change, over things that are serving you no purpose in life in any way. You deserve so much better than what was, what has been. Don't lose yourself trying to get back what once was. Happiness must first start with us, every one of us. 

The funny thing about it all is that we have a connection. We have a connection that stretches into the subconscious, into the heart, mind, body, and soul. The question is, how did that happen? Why do we know each other's actions and emotions? Of course, I cannot speak for you, but I know your heart, maybe more than you realize. You live in denial, fearing emotion, fearing vulnerability. You fear the human inside like a child would fear monsters under their bed. The phobia is imagined, the phobia masks the true person that you are. The truth is that you miss me, though this is of a matter unspoken of. You do not understand your reasoning for being entrapped in a cloud. Rather, you will not allow yourself to understand the reasons. You will not allow yourself to feel emotion, to become vulnerable. Instead, you would rather leave the majority guessing. You would rather remain cold and distant than to deal with the problems inside. The subconscious will break through sometime, and you will feel. You will realize why it hurts, you will see why you weren't as happy as you were. When you do, then you will realize the true value of someone.

As I look into my own eyes, I see the pain and destruction that you left scarred across my heart that I had unwillingly given to you. I see the anxiety and wonder of when or if you would come back. I see the longing to see you change, to know the person I know that you can be. You come around to let me know that I'm still in your thoughts and mind, as you are still in mine. I think of what you have done, how you have caused me tears and heart ache, and somehow I am able to look past it all and still have hope for you. I still have hope for you. I find my heart yearning for you, craving your presence, craving for the reconciliation that may or may not come. I find myself admitting that I have been in love with you, and that I may still be, even though my heart is torn. I am picking up the pieces, becoming stronger for the future, because it is the only option I have left. I wonder if that future includes you. I wonder if you will change, if you will stop doing the things that you do that only hurt the ones who care for you. I wonder if I will ever be able to completely trust you. I just wanted you to know that I missed you, that I missed us. 
          "What are you willing to do? Tell me what you're willing to do. Kiss it, kiss it better." 

I feel like I value my alone time much more than I value being around others. Soul searching seems to have become a reoccurring theme in my everyday life, and it has left me inspired. Not only am I feeling inspired, but I am also, through confusion and frustration, finding clarity and understanding. Not everything will always be black and white.

Hey honey i love your book so much, i always check my notifications to see if you have updated, pls do update soon. Love u xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.......lol

So, I have an announcement! As rare as the occasion is, I checked my emails today to see all of your lovely comments and encouragement to continue writing. School has become too time consuming this year and I had given up somewhat on the wattpad community, books, etc. However, I am newly inspired and will be writing more. I'm going to have new books coming out soon, some of which already have chapters, though they have not been published. I'm also taking suggestions on things you all want to see and read, so if you have any, feel free to tell me! I will have my notifications on from now on, and I should see about everything that goes on surrounding my account. Once again, thank you all for the love and support, it truly means the world.

Sometimes I just don't feel like writing. I guess it's a form of writer's block and a little bit of laziness. I'll get back on it soon enough. Sorry guys xx