lovelyjin22

All the support for my Eugene fanfiction is making me so happy! Thank you guys so much for the support : ))

lovelyjin22

I like to talk about Tom Holland every chance I get, even if he is completely unrelated to the topic of whatever conversation i’m in.
          
          My friend: so who’s your favourite villain?
          
          Me: Tom Holland 
          
          My friend: What he’s not a vi-
          
          Me: He stole my heart, so he’s a villain.
          
          My friend: Not a very good vil-
          
          Me: aLRIGHT YOU CAN LIKE, NOT, TOM HOLLAND IS THE BEST AT EVERYTHING AND IF HE WANTS TO BE A VILLAIN, even tho he’s an actual cinnamon roll, I WILL SUPPORT HIM, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I ACTUALLY WANT TO EX-
          
          My friend: Okay okay okay, we get it, you’re married to Tom.

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I’m making this a book series, dont ask why
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lovelyjin22

I had written a fair amount of words onto this conversation thing. It was deep and about.. well depressing things. Apparently it was too long and when I had posted it didn’t send saying, “conversation words exceeds limit”  I had copied it but apparently it didn’t really copy.  
          
          But heres a summary of what I had wrote:
          
          I don’t want to be that person that says, “You’re not alone”. But, I guess I am that person. I have depression, stress anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. I have mental breakdowns way too often, and I sometimes cry and shake violently and the sight of myself when I look in the mirror. Sometimes I can go to sleep as the silence fills up it my thoughts. And that not a very pretty sight. All those depressing thoughts are a real bummer.  As of right now I’m sitting in my room writing this at 2:26 in the morning, as I literally cannot go to sleep.

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this message may be offensive 
My best friend also happened to be suicidal and still has depressing thoughts.  We used to have all nighters at her house, talking and doing shit. We couldn’t sleep because of the “voice”. The voice that told us we were useless, ugly, fat, a waste of oxygen, and more. No longer can we though because, I moved, she is in Florida and I’m in California. Also, my family wouldn’t appreciate me FaceTiming or calling her at 3 am..
            
            I still feel worthless and ugly and fat, but, if you are dealing with these things, just know you aren’t alone. There’s billions of people, there’s no way that nobody feels how you feel.  
            
            The amounts of times I tried to kill myself is unbearable to think about. I even have goodbye letters written out. Hidden somewhere until it really is goodbye. But I don’t that’s anytime soon.  
            
            I hope everyone lives their lives to the fullest and don’t give a damn on what others think about you. Because you are strong! Independent! Beautiful! And Amazing! Everyone is dealing with something, and that’s okay, because what’s life without it.  
            
            I hope you reach out to someone, or something that makes you happy weather it be music, art, reading, or even running.  
            
            Just please stay alive and live your life with the glass half full, and not half empty.
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lovelyjin22

i have a couple of secret fanfictions ready to be published... but I'm gonna first finish the fanfictions i have now before exploding them to the world! I'm trying to work on a scheduling system... but it's not going as planned since I'm a disorganized person.

lovelyjin22

If I were to enter the Watty’s 2017, which book of mine do you recommend? I will complete/finish the book with final chapters and send it in with the hashtag. (Aka which book you you want the ending to the most?)

lovelyjin22

 Well then I guess I have time! Since it’s winter break I’ll write the final chapters!
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Ana_Orange

@Diamond-Senpai I would like to see an ending to Blank the Youtuber, but you'll have to wait until the wattys for 2018, 2017 is already over, I'll e entering it next year too!
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