recent events have made me realize how many things i take for granted. this is just gonna be a paragraph of throw up words. please always check up on your friends and let them know how much you love and appreciate them, they may need it. it’s insane how the kindest people can have the darkest emotions and it just goes to show how everyone to fighting their own battles. i still haven’t been able to get it out of my head and i still wonder if you were crying while you did it. passing by your locker stacked with hydrangeas, your favorite flowers, and plastered with tens of post-its from your closest friends and simply people who knew of you or the news, always makes me break down. i’m sorry i couldn’t help you and i’m sorry i didn’t push you more when you insisted you were okay. you acted weird in your last week and i noticed, many people noticed, but we thought nothing of it. you were so beautiful and kind and just made of pure light; and your intelligence was light years ahead of our time. i remember spending first period with you everyday last year and fourth period with you for your last weeks this year. it feels like deja vu when i walk past where we stood at one point and time feels like congested jelly. i love you so much girly, you don’t even know. thank you for helping me through a tough period of my life, it’s frightening to think i could’ve ended up where you are if you hadn’t, and i’m sorry i couldn’t do the same for you. rest easy, baby.
check on your friends.