AutumnsWhisper
Hope you’re doing well ❤️
loverbyanakin
SlasherQu33n
Are you going to update Young & Beautiful anytime soon?
polarismoonchild
Are u fine?
polarismoonchild
@loverbyanakin taking in oxygen doesn't make u fine!! Spare some time to heal, ok? do something that relaxes you, take it easy......
loverbyanakin
@polarismoonchild | that's a loaded question. in the grand scheme of things no, but i'm still alive so that's a win.
loverbyanakin
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i try to be bright and happy and alive but sometimes i feel like my soul is one that's already dead and waiting in my body to move on, and then i just can't fucking move and i can't talk to anyone and when i do i sound so awful and people think i hate them but i feel so disconnected and empty and I CAN'T MOVE OR TALK OR EVEN BREATHE EASY and the words just won't come out
polarismoonchild
@loverbyanakin sadly i don't have a solution for you............but let's see what happens next, because life can be surprising sometimes :)
polarismoonchild
@loverbyanakin and about the friends part you mentioned, i am in a similar not so similar situation, i am already friends with her,but she keeps saying i'm pushing her away................but honestly, i just don't know what to say or do whenever I'm around her, i am so confused, and recently i feel socially anxious, so it's ben hard for me and i blame myself because I'm destroying our bond............
polarismoonchild
@loverbyanakin Love yourself, you deserve to exist! better yet, you deserve to live. Please don't blame everything upon yourself, life can be quite unfair sometimes
loverbyanakin
loverbyanakin
managed to overcome my writer's block to get this out. it isn't the best but it's certainly the best i can do at the moment ;(. new chapter of young and beautiful!
https://www.wattpad.com/1347501229-%F0%9D%90%98%F0%9D%90%8E%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%8D%F0%9D%90%86-%F0%9D%90%80%F0%9D%90%8D%F0%9D%90%83-%F0%9D%90%81%F0%9D%90%84%F0%9D%90%80%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%93%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%85%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%8B-%E2%9E%B3%E3%80%8C%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A7%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A4%F0%9D%90%A2%F0%9D%90%A7-%F0%9D%90%AC%F0%9D%90%A4%F0%9D%90%B2%F0%9D%90%B0%F0%9D%90%9A%F0%9D%90%A5%F0%9D%90%A4%F0%9D%90%9E%F0%9D%90%AB%E3%80%8D-%F0%9D%90%93%F0%9D%90%96%F0%9D%90%8E
AutumnsWhisper
@loverbyanakin seriously instrumental music helped so much you'd be amazed. Best I found is on Spotify if that helps ♥️
loverbyanakin
the amazing devil discography is just soul-cleansing
loverbyanakin
at the moment in my essay i start talking about star wars, it is very clear that i'm just trying to make it more fun for myself lmaoo
loverbyanakin
i'm using the jedi and the sith to paint an example of the differences between religions and cults as part of my final paper in history class, HA TAKE THAT this means my star wars hyperfixation *can* indeed be useful
loverbyanakin
do you think that anakin treated droids so kindly because how people dehumanized them reminded him of when he was a slave?
bananakin-slaywalker
@loverbyanakin LITERALLY. it’s annoying how there’s so much to talk about when it comes to him. he’s a really complex character
loverbyanakin
@timelessmelody- | exactly!! losses like what happened to his mother and the guilt of the fact that he wasn't there to help her were definitely part of it. because he couldn't save his mom he was willing to do anything to save padmé, which is what eventually killed her in the end (again, however indirectly). i too could talk about this all day.
bananakin-slaywalker
@loverbyanakin i could talk about this all day. he was not heartless, he just gave into his fears and anxieties without thinking about the consequences because i think he was afraid of loss as a result of bottled up trauma.