It's really been in my mind how weird I am , how abnormal I am , like , would a normal girl want to slice a throat , they usually like cute things and world peace , while being a hit man become similar to prostitution for me , isn't it getting paid for a pleasure you want to get ? , that amount blood rushing out of a human body in that kind of dramatic way is a thing I would want to admire closely , the last piece of  cake that I will eat and a piece of art that my body aches seeing , or like a song I'd dance to at the middle of night , or like a bite from that viscous stupid brain of yours dear .