Jayden

I love youu

Papaaaa are we going through the same thing case ummm I’m als questioning if I’m gender fluid

HELLAUR

I miss my best friend :(((

// Major Vent. 
          
          
          
          2 weeks and 3 days. Only that and I messed up. 
          Scrolled too far. Saw some stuff that set my insides ablaze, like I was being eaten by the inside by maggots and worms. 
          Spiraled and just, whoops. 
          
          ... I feel sick to my stomach. I was so desperate to be loved. It makes me wanna cry. Why did I act like that? Why did I say that? Do you still see me as an angel or do you see how I see myself?
          Some part of me died off with a lot of people. It feels like I'm being dissected until I'm nothing. 
          
          ... Guy asked me out. Some part of me wanted to say yes, maybe, just maybe, I could've had a chance at trying to be happy. But I said no. 
          Since I've lost my feelings for hunger and tiredness, I've also lost the emotion to feel attraction to another, to love and yearn. I don't know where it has gone, but it's not there. My chest feels empty. 
          
          ... I don't see a point in living. Most of my friends are unfazed with death, think of it as something so simple ... It kinda calms me. Like... I hope that viewpoint of death makes my death a little less worth grieving and missing. 
          I don't want to be missed. I want tiger lilies on my grave. I want Willow to visit me, tell me how life's going when I'm long gone. Maybe she'll tell me about all the good stuff in her life. I hope she lives longer than I ever could. 

I love you

Stop I love your theme

Wow. Just... Wow. 

Rant //

Holly's reading this rn