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i want you out of my life, just fucking leave.
          stop haunting me already.
          i thought it would be over when you broke my heart, but the pain keeps on coming.

just shut up and take what you haven't already. i have practically nothing left, you can have it all, it doesn't matter anymore.

fuck i really wish i could hate you.
          with all of my heart, i wish i could.
          you're so cruel to me,
          smiling towards me under your hood
          of the jacket you always wear.
          i wonder if this is a nightmare
          or if you're actually there.
          i really wish i could hate you.

i keep trying to hide my anger like it's not there,
          but i'm angry
          and i have every right to be.
          you made me fall in love
          only to reveal that i was never an option.

one day you will love me with the vigor of which i loved you, but i will not be there.