@loveyouexols hi, i think you're an amazing person and it's alright not be in control of your feelings from time to time. please don't think of yourself as stupid or useless, im sure others out there would think so much more of you. and if you need anybody to talk to, im always happy to listen to any of your problems, and please take care of your mental, emotional and physical health. updating comes after those, so dont forget to prioritize yourself. i hope you have an amazing day too! ❤