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merry christmas and happy holidays to those who are celebrating ♡

ughhhh i need to finish the layouts so i can post soon

just posted something :)

i was going through my library when i saw the ff i wrote few years ago... i'm actually holding back tears rn, i wish i was joking. i have questions, concerns and comments for my younger self. the amount of cringe was way too much for me to hold. i wanna thank and apologize to the girls who found my ff and made fun of it, cuz they made me delete that shit. i was so triggered by them, cursing them and shit, mind yall i was not even a teen yet. at some point i got humbled and after some months i apologized to one of the girls and thankfully the convo went fine. 
          
          now that i read half of the ff i wrote back then (i couldn't read more of it, it was so cringy) i see how much i grew up and how i developed more skills in writing. if i ever post one of my drafts some day, i kinda want to send it to the girl i apologized to, knowing that she probably won't recognise me. 
          
          to that one girl: i wont mention your username, but i think your name was vicky. vicky, i apologize once again for the bs you read back then, i'm wishing u a good day and a good life 

you're insane, you became a stalker. you text me every 1-2 months when i told you i want a pause, you find a way to contact me, you even rang our home phone at fucking 8 pm. are you crazy? i'm genuinely asking, and also that's a rhetorical question, i don't want you to reply if you see this somehow, because you're a stalker. you came outside my home, you sent my sister a facebook friend request. you make it a living hell. i'm not the biggest fan of going out but now i'm scared because i never know when you will appear next and what your next move will be. we will talk with your parents, and if you don't listen to them when they tell you to leave me alone, the law will be included. i'm dead serious. rethink whether you will still contact me or not. leave me alone for fuck's sake

if people ask you to stay, you stay if you want to. 
          if people tell you to go away, you fucking run away. 
          it's so simple. 
          leave me alone for lord's sake, how many fucking times should i tell you??

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its 3 am and here i am, trying to think of what will happen in the jiu x yoohyeon ff.

the word "us" became my favourite word

im craving for big warm hugs.